Sidnaaz: Forbidden Love

Nanny..???

After the call... Siddharth reaches back his place, he moves inside.. locks the door... marches over to his room... slam the door shut... and gets ready to fights himself out.... to vent out his frustrations.... to vent out his irritations... to vent out his anger.... to vent out his rage.... to vent out his all sort of emotions.... the peaceful ones too.... YES...!!!!..... he was peaceful.... today.... and... calm too.... which was bothering him too much....  

Sid: ughhhhhhh..... nahi.... no siddharth.... this peace... woh bhi sirf usko dekh ke..... mat la... you have to buckle up.... jaise aaj kiaa waise hi baad mein bhi karna hoga..... you can't show her...... you can't show her any emotions.... kuch nahi..... just can't..... whatever is going on in this damn heart.... is not something to tell... specially to her.... you can't open it in front of her... nahi karna hai.... kabhi nahi....

In anger... he also destroy stuff... but.. not the glasses.... or breaks stuff.... but he punches the hell out of the wall.... still his hand doesn't stop... he keeps punching... making his knuckles bleed.. but he didn't stopped himself.... he didn't stopped the torture he was giving to himself.... he didn't wanted to feel peaceful... he didn't wanted to feel calm.... but he did.... it was not just her presence... but her want of his reaction..... her need for him to react... she wanted him to react being close to some one else.... she still wanted me to react.... she is still... and will be... only... and only HIS....

Sid: ughhhhhhh......ahhhhhh!!!!!

A loud groan escaped his mouth... thinking about her.... thinking about her being some one else's..... but still he knows she is his..... but she can not be right.... she can not be right about his brother.... noooooo....

SId: relax kar..... why are you letting her over power you.... you shouldn't..... you shouldn't let her.... you should not let her effect you siddharth... no...... no... no.... no she can't be right about my brother.... ughhh siddharth.... you just saw him kissing someone.... that doesn't mean he'll be guilty of that..... no he can not pull such act.... and he won't.....

Being in denial to be close to your loved ones... always have you suffering.. and that is the exact situation of them both......

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The Next Morning..

Sun shine fell on her face... disturbing her sleep... she rubbed her eyes and opened them while yawning covering her mouth and then stretching herself....

Sana: well that was a gooooooood sleeeeeeeeeeeeep.........!!!!!!

She saw Aasha... took a deep breath soaking the positivity of this room..... this room always makes her feel peaceful... calm.. yet deep in guilt.... but today.. none felt like that.... there was no guilt... my face was lit up with energy.... i was smiling.... really... me and smiling... we never go well.... well not for long... as i heard some voice... it was known.... a girl... a bubbly girl... no.... no it wasn't Aasha... she's still asleep...

Sana: i wonder how long i slept....

She checked the time... and it was way longer than it usually be...

Sana: itna zyada soh gaye main..... and a peaceful one too... his presence has a charm.... but i need to focus... i know he still doesn't believe me.... but he trusts me.... ek baar ghalati hogayi.... i am not going to repeat it....

She stops talking when Aasha squirms a bit.... she looks towards... she was cooing and her fist crawled up till her eyes.. rubbing them.... a sight to see.... a sight to behold.... She quickly went to her, luckily without tripping or even making any sound... Shehnaaz took the little baby girl Aasha in her hands... hugging her to her chest and swaying herself with her swinging in her arms back and forth... very steadily and slow.... she hugged her and kissed her fist which wrapped her index finger in it....