Dreams and Whims

Mended Acquaintance

Last night I had a dream about someone who broke my heart with their silence two years ago.

Me and him were very close since 8th grade and at the end of freshman year he dropped me without a word.

Thing is, looking back, I don't blame him in the slightest. I wouldn't exactly want to be around me at the time either since my whole demeanor had changed, making me pretty unlikable. 

I'm actually glad he left without a word rather than snapping. I wouldn't want to spend energy on someone like that either. 

Near the end of junior year we just came to terms that we don't hate each other. We follow each other's personal accounts and sometimes we have very short conversations from each other's stories.

It's an acquaintance.

As for the dream, it's somewhat blurry right now. However I remember that I was leaving a convenience store near my school and one of my current friends was waiting outside the store for me and I handed him something. This part isn't necessarily important since it's probably just a reflection of how he would for me outside of our Spanish III class everyday.

It cuts to me and the person from the beginning, departing from each other in front of said convenience store. Like casually in a way that you do at the end of a school day. Our hands glided past each other as we walked in opposite directions and there was a light bubbly feeling in my chest because of his presence. It's not romantic at all but the mere joy you have when you're with a friend.

Me and him aren't exactly friends now, but the feeling reminded me of when him and I were on great terms and it felt nostalgic.

Since it doesn't really hurt whenever I think about him on the rare occasion, I think this dream was probably just reminiscing to a time where I was living vicariously and he was in a lot of those memories. Maybe it's a prediction of the future or feeling I'll have in the future too? 

I'm part of that slim percentage that can kind of sense the future through their dreams which is why I don't like manipulating my dreams because glimpses of the future are so COOL. I'll get into that in another chapter. :)

Surprisingly this dream gave me an urge to live wild again when school starts again. I mean I've been doing that my entire high school career but I REALLY want to get out of my comfort zone now. 

It's weird how such a random dream can evoke such a strong emotion like that.

We'll see what happens in the future; I want a lot of stories for me to tell when I'm old.