𝑬𝑰𝑳𝑰𝑺𝑯 𝑰𝑴𝑨𝑮𝑰𝑵𝑬𝑺

•4am•

Your POV

Billie 💌

I'm about to drive to your house if you don't answer me.
Read 2:35am

Billie wtf, just talk to me and tell me what's wrong.
Read 3:35am

Did I do or say something wrong.
Read 3:36

Fuck it imma drive over there.
20 minutes later I pull up to her house..knowing it's almost 4am I climb to her window trying my hardest not to wake anyone up..although it's a four feet climb and I'm weak as fuck

I get up to her window to see her just laying there staring at the wall.

I knock on the window causing her to jump.

She looks at me and covered her face with a pillow.

5 minutes later I realized the window was unlocked and I let myself in.

"Billie"

"What" she said- muffled by the pillow

"It talks"

"Shut up"

I climbed onto the bed and straddle her.

"Bitch I just climbed four damn feet to make sure you're okay, take the pillow off of your face"

"No go away"

I could tell she definitely wasn't serious.

"Okay. Bye"

I got off of her to feel her pull me back.

"Wait don't actually leave"

"Why you won't me too"

"I'm sorry don't leave"

I pull the pillow off of her and move her hair

"Why are you covering your pretty face"

"I'm not pretty"

Um..what

"I'm sorry what"

"Why don't you think your pretty"

"Because I know I'm not"

"Are people telling you that"

"No I just, i know I'm not"

"You're gorgeous..like insanely gorgeous. Your eyes sparkle even when you're sad, your smile makes your eyebrows crunch together giving your face more character. And god when you smile your teeth show just enough to make my heart smile"

Billie looks up at me and puts a piece of fallen hair behind my ear

"I will never deserve you" she says to me a single tear falling from her eye

"Deserve me?" I say shocked

"Oh my love, I will question myself everyday wondering how I got so lucky with you.." I say back to her

I got off of her and she sits up pulling me back into her lap. She wraps her arms around my waist while I wrap my legs around her hips and my arms around her neck

"Billie there aren't enough words in the world to express how much I love and care for you"

Her eyes stay locked to mine
"Do you love me" I say to her

"More then you'll ever know"

"Then let me help you..i was worried sick about you for hours. I know you're hurting and I know it feels like the world is crumbling from underneath you but I am you're safety. I would give my life in a second to know somehow it would make you happy everyday for the rest of your life. I would jump in front of a bullet for you a million times a day just to make sure your smile is never fake, I would do absolutely anything for you because I love you but please open up to me, please start talking to me because I can't keep worrying about you till my chest hurts, I can't keep crying over your safety till my I can feel my head throb-

I choke back a sob

"Hey, it's okay I'm okay I promise"

Billie pulled my body closer to hers rubbing my back for comfort "I'm so so sorry for making you constantly worry I promise I will be more open with you. In the end it's always you. I always need you no matter what I'm going through I just have terrible communication"

"I dread losing you everyday of my life, I'm terrified to go to sleep and wake up without you here. It truly takes my breath away and not in the good way"

"I will try harder everyday from now, and tonight you're staying here...with me, I'll wrap you in my arms so tight that all the bad thoughts go away. I'll play with your hair and talk to you all night until you fall asleep safe and sound"

I look at billie and smile at her both of us a crying mess "I love you so much I could never imagine my life without you"

"You'll never have too" I smile at her and kiss her softly going back to hugging her tightly

"But are you sure you're okay"

"As long as I have you I will always be okay"
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I love you- Billie Eilish