(itcmfl) A World Full of Loneliness

flashback - 01

July 19th 2011
Mackenzie
I stared up to the dozens of kids staring right back at me, piercing into my soul. I got to make my introduction just right! I thought. I looked at my new teacher, for comfort. All she did was look at me impatiently. I knew I had to hurry up.
"H-hi! I'm Mackenzie, most people call me Mack!" I said, mumbling.
Well, there goes being confident. I rub my hand against my other arm, anxiously. I really hope the teacher says something. Anything. When the teacher finally spoke, her response was not what I expected.
"Talk louder sweetheart." She says, trying to calm my nerve with that relaxing tone, she has.
I take my hand off of my arm and prepare myself by taking a deep breath.
"I said, I'm delighted to be in this class! Thank you everyone." I bow down and proudly take my seat.
I did it! I actually did it! Did I miss out on anything? Oh- great. I forgot to say my own name! How could I have forgotten that? I had quickly gotten lost in my thoughts, that I forgot to look who I was sat beside. I knew a few of the students in the class, however who I was sat next to, I didn't know. I find myself analysing this boy for the rest of the class. He had blond short cropped hair, black oval eyes, pale skin, a broad nose, small lips and bleached, pure black eyebrows. By looking at him, I could tell he was taller than me, even if we were sitting down. He seemed like the type of boy who would make fun of girls who are shorter than him. As I get interrupted by the teacher, I notice that all my classmates were looking at me gazing at him for the past half-hour or so. I had never felt so embarrassed in my life!
"Mackenzie? What's your answer to question 4?" My teacher asks.
"H-huh? Question- what question was that again?" I ask.
All the students laugh. The boy who I was sat by, smiled at me, brightly.

The bell rang.
"Alright, that's enough for today class." The teacher says, in her normal relaxed voice.
Everyone jumps out of their seats and begins to go outside for recess. I begin to walk outside my classroom door and Ash approaches me. One word to describe Ash? Dickhead. He's a real-
"Wow, look what we got here!" Ash smirks.
I eye roll. I try to barge Ash out the way as he continues his daily talk on why he hates me. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Classic right? Smh! I take another step forward and without noticing I started to slip, as Ash purposely placed his foot where I was going to walk next. Woah! The guy who was sat next to me before, manages to catch me before I face-planted the floor. Phew! My luck hasn't gone after all. I look up to see his eyes gazing into mine. We stayed like that for a while. I felt like I had fallen in love, or maybe I'm just delusional. Both works. He decides to ruin the moment-
"I caught you, do you think I'm your hero now?" He said, flirtatiously.
My alter ego decides to take over me and I managed to say this-
"Well I don't think your my hero, I think we are destined to be together! You just wait!" I said that with too much excitement, that the people down the other side of the hall could hear me.
With that said, the dude dropped me and I managed to face-plant the floor. Ouch! That was a bit rude... I look up to see him run away with disgrace. Welp- I've ruined my chances with him already, and maybe my whole class too... I bang my head my head in shame. Ugh! This has been the worst day ever! I whacked my head one more time, even harder on the wooden floors and managed to pass out. The last thing I remember hearing was my teacher screaming,
"Move people! Let me check if she's still breathing!"

Apparently, I fell into a coma. Or so, that's what I heard. I don't know how long I was asleep for however people said it was days, weeks, months and then years...

So, I ain't gunna spare the details. The guy who I sat next to for one class, started to kiss me and I managed to gain conscious after that. Crazy! Am I right? It sounds like my life had been lifted out of a fairy tale! .... okay, that was too far. You get my point, though. I kissed him back. It didn't take me long to realize that I had my first ever KISS with HIM?! He was chill with kissing me, he was shocked at first however he just got the vibe of it. I could just tell, he was a great kisser. He pauses. He takes his face away from my face and speaks to me.
"It's a miracle how these things happen, eh?" He says, speaking like we've known each other for years upon ends.
"Yeah." I crackle like I haven't spoken in ages!
A moment of silence fills the room.
"I'll go get the doctor then-"
I grab his hand before he could rush off.
"W-we could just continue what we were doing... can't we?"
We both laugh at the fact that we both just kissed one another. We both didn't mind it though. It felt right.
"Okay, okay, okay! I get your hint." He says.
My eyes begin to glisten and my mouth smiles at the thought of him kissing me again. .... he ends up just pecking me on my cheeks. Sigh. He hasn't changed at all. He goes to get the doctor and then pauses at the door. It looked like he was really thinking hard. I wondered what he was thinking about. What could've made him so wounded up that he had to pause! Everything was silent. I didn't say a word. He looked like he just wanted a quiet moment to gather his thoughts. I obliged. The next thing I know, he comes running back to me kissing me again. He kissed me like, it was the last moment I would live on this earth. I don't know how to explain it, I could just sense his emotion he was trying to get forward to me. It was almost like he was saying, "if you do this again, I will kill you baka! (idiot!)" the thought of it just made me laugh. "I'm still here, don't worry." I wanted to say. I just couldn't bring myself to it. I wanted to say something meaningful before he broke the kiss off again. I just didn't know what to say. I just thought it was a good idea to say whatever first came to my mind-
"C-can we go to your house?"
"What?" He broke off the kiss.
"L-like a d-date... maybe?"
He laughs, making me look like a fool.
"A date? With you? As if I ever would!"
I rolled my eyes. This was just what I expected off of him! Why do I always get my hopes up! Sighhh.
"We need a doctor to check up on you first, then... I'll consider it."
Wait- WHAT? A date with a cute guy from my class?? A date with a guy who I don't even know his name...
"Fine. At least-"
He flew out the door as soon as I could finish what I was saying.
- a few hours later -
"Ready to go home?" He emphasizes on the word "home".
Hm? What is he thinking?
"Where?" I question.
He comes up close to me and whispers in my ear, "my place." EXCUSE ME?? Did I hear that correctly? His place?? I've never been to a guys place before!!
Spoiler alert. He lied.
- a few hours later - AGAIN!!
He was generous and just rented out a hotel room for me to rest. He said it was "the best way for me to relax!" Pft, yeah right. I admit, the staff at this hotel was brilliant! They always knew how to cater for your needs and always put the customers first. I bet the guy who I came with, set this all up for me. It seemed a bit much like, special treatment. Not that I didn't mind but... it was just all a bit strange.

He comes into the hotel room and kisses me on the forehead. "Goodnight, love." He says, teasing me.
Pft. I know he doesn't like me. He's always been a tease. I roll my eyes.
"Stop doing that."
I roll my eyes again. He grabs my arms and pins them up against the bed.
"I said, stop."
I sigh. I pause for a second, learning my lesson. He ends tonight with the words,
"I never said I didn't like you."
He immediately left after that. Knowing myself, you can tell the next thing I did was roll myself over on my stomach blushing and creating a tantrum like movement to show my excitement. Ahhhh! He likes me too!!

Or so I thought.

End of flashback