1989 boyfriend, Im Jaebeom

He touched my waist and put my hands around his neck. The soft music from cassette, tape filled the entire room. He always looks good in his clothes, a pair of green polo and slacks. 

"Let's dance until morning." he said in a soft whispering voice, but enough for us to hear. I smiled and nod at him. I hope this day will last forever.

"What if my mom found out this?" I asked him, but he just kissed my forehead. 

"Then don't tell her." He pulls me closers to me and now I am hugging him while we are dancing.

"Are you happy with me?" He asked me and I look at him.

"I am, always. I will always and forever be happy and grateful that I met you." He smiled at me and hug me. I always feel safe whenever I am in his arms. When I am with him, I forgot how the world turns and the people around us. I wish I was with him forever. 

We danced until the sunrise appears. We came out of the room and watch the sunrise. He leans closer to me and I let him sleep on my shoulders.

"I'm tired," he said and I wiped my tears and pat his back. 

"Sleep then, I know you are tired. I won't wake you up." I kissed his forehead and he hold my hand. This tiny little hand, I smiled. In the past years of our relationship, there was no day that I cry because of him. But now, my tears are falling like a waterfall. If I could turn back time, I wish I met him sooner.

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"Do you have a date miss?" The saleslady asked me and handed me the white roses. I just shrugged and told her I am giving this to someone. My phone is ringing while I am walking alongside the bridge of the Han River. I remember the time when the Han River Bridge is not like this. 

"Why?" I asked my child what is his want.

/ Can you buy me a donut mommy when you go home? / I smiled at my child's request.

"Of course, wait for me." He shouted happily and thank me. That kid.

I am at my destination and I smiled when I saw his name.

"Jaebeom-ah," I placed the white roses near his name and smile.

"It's been a long time, how are you? Me? I'm good. I'm good, I think?" I wiped my tears as they keep on falling down. It has been 20 years since he left and I still can't forget him. I won't.

"Don't worry about me, I always feel safe because I knew you were around." That day, I won't forget that day when I felt the most happiest and at the same time the most sorrowful day of my life. I won't forget that day that we dance into our favorite song in the cassette and he rests on my shoulders.

"Jaebeom-ah, you met my child right? I named him after you. Because that child is my angel, he saved me from loneliness. I found him on the front of the church." I stand up and fix my dress.

"Jaebeom-ah, twenty years has passed and my heart didn't change, we may not be together now, but soon we will. I love you Jaebeom, I love you my lover since 1989."

The end.