My Stepbrother

7. Deeper than skin

As much as I don't want to put this due to laziness i do understand that I must for the sake of the readers. Also the video attached above is just some noice aesthetic music but it does contain swear words so yeah just read the warning.
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Camila
I laid their, eyes open and mind racing in a marathon with everything that had happened today. We were all sprawled across the living room,  snores could be heard from Niall and Brian. I sighed and looked at their clock, 2:39am. I contemplated getting up to go get some water but I chose against it and rolled over to see Shawn on the floor in front of me, eyes closed and lips slightly open as soft snores came from him.

I felt like crying looking at him, recalling the talk we had earlier.

"I-I've been taking the pills for a while now." He stuttered still not making eye contact with me. "Shawn that's not what I asked. How long have you been taking them." He sighed and after a while he looked up at me. "2 months after we first met. That's when it started becoming unbearable and I knew I needed help. The doctor that gave me the medicine told me that I should be careful with how much I take and I was careful with how much I would take... at least for a month. I realized that they weren't giving me the immediate relief like they used to so I started taking around 3 to 4 but I didn't think it was to serious cause I would only use them when I really felt like I needed it and for the time being, it worked like a charm." he sighed. "Then we started going to MIMA and that's when it all went down hill. Instead of using them once in a while I would use them the second I felt the slightest bit of anxiety to make it just go away. The more and more I did this, the more and more it became addicting."

"I.... I didn't mean to take so many but it became a habit to have more than 3 at a time. I didn't even realize that what I was doing could be seriously bad. I-I'm so sorry Camila. I know that you are most likely upset with me right now but I didn't know what to do. I'm only 16. I make rational decisions without thinking and this was one of them. I promise I was gonna tell you soon but I just never had the courage to talk to you and I know that things would most likely be so different if I told somebody, anybody that I was feeling this way and maybe just maybe things would be a little different in our relationship, we could've been friends much earlier instead of being whatever we are now and-" I cut him off as his head was in the crook of my neck, cutting off whatever he was about to say as I whispered sweet nothings into his ear. We were back into the same situation, both of us crying and holding each other in our arms.

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I was awoken the next morning by the sound of laughing and people bickering (which I instantly assumed was Brian and Ariana). "How did you even make it into MIMA if you have the brain cells of a rock. Oh wait no EVEN A ROCK HAS MORE BRAIN CELLS THAN YOU." Ari screamed making Taylor and Niall roll on the ground clutching their stomachs at how brutally honest Ariana is. I smiled at the scene in front of me. I yawned causing Ari to snap her attention towards me and befor I knew it, my spine was being crushed and my lungs were being squashed as Ari threw her hands around me.

"Good morning to you to I guess." I chuckled as I rapped my arms around the fashionista in front of me. "I see your in a better mode than before." I teased as she slowly loosened her grip around my waist. "I'm happier now because I have an excuse to stay away from that knucklehead over there." she stated, pointing towards Brian in the process. Everyone laughed as Brian feigned hurt and pretended to wipe away a tear from his eye. "Knuckleheads have feelings to ya know." He cried and Ariana just rolled her eyes at the man she called her friend.