My Stepbrother

6. Breaking when your Broken

Camila

"Where were you guys." Taylor questioned the two as they walked back to the living room with their heads low, to scared to show their friends their red eyes.

"We just had to talk about a couple of things but it's fine now... we're fine now" Shawn stated looking back at Camila, only to get no reaction from her what so ever.

They all continued the evening like nothing happend. They acted like it was all just a figment of their imagination, well, except for Camila. She was to lost in her own thoughts to be paying attention to what they were saying. She was there but she wasn't there.

"Camila are you listening to anything that I am saying?" Ariana asked getting a bit annoyed with her friend. "Sorry Ari i'm just having trouble focusing right now..." She said as she looked down at her hands and picked at her nails, a habit she has when she's nervous or deep in thought.

From then on, Camila tried her hardest to listen to every word that was coming out of the other short girls mouth but failed miserably, letting her thoughts consume her. She flicked her gaze towards Shawn and saw how happy he looked, well at least how happy he was acting. She watched as he threw his head back laughing at something that Brian had said and she started to question why he was so calm.

She slowly became engulfed with frustration. Why was he so calm about this and she wasn't? It just doesn't seem fair to her. He's over there laughing like he's on cloud nine while she's here being dragged into her thoughts, recalling the events that had taken place before all of this. She picked up her glass of water that was on the coaster table and let the cooling liquid go down her throat, trying to move on and let the frustration go.

"So what do you think I should do?" Ariana said looking dead into Camilas eyes. Shit. She looked back at Ariana who was looking at her so attentively that it made her want to just hide far away never to be found. "I honestly don't know Ari, it's your decision at the end of the day." Camila said as calmly as she possibly could hoping that it didn't make her friend suspicious of her.

"Your right it's just I don't know if pastel yellow is better or baby blue" she sighed. So that's what she's talking about. Clothes.

Shawn

I could feel her gaze on me and I tried my hardest to just ignore it and pay attention to the people sitting in front of me and around me. I couldn't help but look at her for a second. I sighed as I saw how tense she was. She wasn't taking this well and it hurt me to see her so lost.

"We should watch a movie! It would be fun." Ariana said out of nowhere, scaring me out of my thoughts. "Yeah we should do that 'cause i'm getting bored" Taylor finally speaks after looking at her phone for the past hour. "Let's all go change into our pajamas then come back out to choose a movie" We all nodded our heads in agreement and the boys went to my room to change while the girls went to Camila's.

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After 30 minutes we were all finally downstairs in the living room with blankets, pillows and popcorn trying to choose a movie to watch, well the rest of us didn't really care what we watched but Brian and Ari did.

"I swear to GOD BRIAN! Your taste in movies is absolutely garbage. It's a sleepover and you want to watch an action movie?!" Ariana screams at Brian's 'stupidity'. "Well it's better than watching a horror movie. Not all of us are good with those. Besides action movies would help us loosen up a bit!" Brian retaliates but in all honesty, i'm on Ari's side. Ariana sighs showing that she knows that both of them won't give up without a fight.

"Can somebody please help me knock some sense into Brian please because he needs to understand that you don't watch action movies at a sleepover" "Ari's right" I finally say knowing that if one of us doesn't say something we won't watch the movie till the next morning. "Bri as much as I love watching action movies with you we both know that you don't watch them at sleepovers. Anyone else gonna say something?"

I scan the room and I see everyone nodding their heads with me in agreement except for one person. Camila. "Camila are you fine with it?" I asked, waiting for a reply. "Uh-huh" was all she said, not even looking up at me to show that she was actually paying attention to what I was saying. I sighed and told Ari to put on a horror movie.

Ariana finally chose 'The Nun' and she sat on the floor with Taylor and Brian while Niall, Camila and I sat on the couch. We all huddled up together, preparing ourselves for the jump scares and screams ahead. Camila was sitting in the middle of us so we huddled up to her.

We got to one of the biggest jump scares in the movie and all the girls including Brian screamed and we all started dying of laughter except for Camila. She sat still, not taking her stare away from her hands as she fidgeted with them. I don't think she's even been paying attention to the movie.

Camila

"Can I talk to you?" Shawn asked snapping me out of my daze. I nodded my head slowly and followed him to one of the guest rooms downstairs. He closed the door as we entered and we stayed in silence for what seemed like forever but it was only a couple of minutes. He was staring at me, reading me like an open book and I hated it.

"Camila what's wrong?" he said just above a whisper. I stayed silent not wanting to answer that question cause if I did, I would break. "Camila please just talk to me because I know you haven't been paying attention to the movie or when Ari was trying to talk to you earlier. Just tell me what's wrong..." He said as he slowly approached me while I was leaning against the door. I continued to look down at the floor knowing fully well that he was right in front of me at this point.

I couldn't take it anymore. I tried to fight the tears off for as long as I could but I just couldn't take it anymore. A tear rolled down my check and just that tear was able to make my whole body shake. He grabbed my arm causing me to look up at him and he gave me a sad smile and pulled me in for a hug. I was so vulnerable, so open and it scared me. I kept my arms by my side, not giving in to the hug just yet as tears rolled down my cheeks. Then I remembered why I was so sad. So hurt. So broken.

I pushed him away from me with all my strength. Anger was clearly evident on my face. He's the reason why i'm sad. "Your the reason i'm crying. Your the reason that i'm having trouble focusing. Your the reason that I haven't been paying attention. Because you go and act like nothing happened. How can you all act like nothing happened. How can you act like nothing happened even though everything happened! Am I the only one who has questions because everyone else doesn't seem to care at this point and that's what's making me frustrated. The fact that nobody wants to know anything and are more intrigued about what movie they want to watch makes me livid Shawn! You were crying in my arms next to a bottle of Zoloft that you were clearly taking more than you were prescribed to take!"

At those words he looked down and stayed looking down. He was trembling showing that what I was thinking was right. We stayed in silence as I stared at him and he stared at the ground until I finally spoke again. "How long?" I said in a much calmer tone than before. "huh?" He said, never lifting his gaze off the ground. "How long have you been taking them Shawn." and just like that we were back to silence. I stared at him and he stared at the ground.