I Feel Pretty When You're Around

Chapter 30

Quinn and Rachel were currently lying in the brunette's bed. They had both had massive days. As one reunited with her daughter, the other not so much reunited with their mother. The Berry Sunday dinner wasn't that entertaining as it was mostly held in silence. Hiram and Leroy didn't want to cause anymore heartache for the girls so they didn't bring up Shelby or Beth.

"Are you feeling okay?" Quinn asked while holding her girlfriend in the brunette's bed. She called up her mother after she visited Shelby and Beth and asked Judy if she could stay the night at Rachel's and the older blonde immediately said yes. She knew the two girls would definitely need each other that night.

"I'm doing okay," Rachel expressed, moving over to cuddle closer to her girlfriend.

"I heard what you said to Shelby," Quinn said out into the darkness and felt her girlfriend tense up.

"How much did you hear?"

"All of it."

Silence filled the room for a bit as Rachel didn't know what to say and the blonde knew that and so she thought to start the conversation, "Look Rach I don't want you to have to be going over to Shelby's just because of me and I don't want you to act polite in front of each other for mine and Beth's sake."

"I know you wouldn't want that."

"Then why did you say it?" Quinn asked in a soft voice. She didn't want them to have a fight about this, she just wanted to understand what her girlfriend was thinking and feeling.

"Because I want you to get to know Beth and I don't know what I want with Shelby yet."

"So when you basically said you wanted nothing to do with her and that you were only here for me that you didn't mean it?"

"Not entirely," Rachel confessed.

"Then what did you mean by it?" Quinn wondered.

"Well like I've told you before, she's my mom and I want to get to know her, but I'm also scared that she will leave again. For now I'm just working on trusting her and that is why I said that."

"So you still want to get to know her?"

"Yes of course I do but it's going to take some time."

"So that means you're going to have small talk and act polite to each other until you feel comfortable with something more?"

"Exactly," Rachel said looking up at her girlfriend. "Do you understand?"

"Absolutely," Quinn smiled as she leaned down and gave her girlfriend a kiss on the lips.

Once the couple parted, Rachel looked into hazel eyes, "I also heard what you and Shelby were talking about."

"Well seeing as I heard you two I thought you may have heard our conversation," Quinn smiled.

"So how do you feel about what Shelby said?" Rachel asked.

"Honestly, it's more than I could have asked for. She's letting me into Beth's life. I get to see her grow up and she gets to know who I am and know that I didn't abandon her. That I gave her away for the right reasons." Quinn smiled as tears came to her eyes.

"Do you ever regret giving her up?"

"I did....I did every day. I was so scared that she would hate me forever but going to see her with Shelby...seeing how she's being raised, I now feel like I made the right decision."

"Well that's great Quinn, I'm happy you realized it, it must be a big weight off your shoulders," Rachel said smiling up at her girlfriend.

"It is....but what about you? How do you feel about what Shelby said to me?"