don't go • soonhoon (completed)

• fourteen •

a week passed and jihoon was easily on his feet again. he was stubborn as ever and didn't let jeonghan keep him in bed any longer. soonyoung often trailed behind him keeping him from doing anything ridiculous and because he liked being around jihoon.

mingyu was recovering steadily. he wasn't making any great jumps to being okay but nonetheless his condition was getting better every day. the gang still had no idea what the jug-im gang was going to do next but everyone had their guard up.

"soonyoung, i don't want you to forget that after this is over im returning you to your normal life." jihoon said as he and soonyoung sat together outside in the grass.

"what if i don't want to go back?" soonyoung asked as he turned to look at jihoon. jihoon let out a sigh and dropped his head.

"i forbid it. you can't stay here." jihoon answered and soonyoung just stared at him.

"i don't care. i want to stay here with you." soonyoung argued and jihoon looked to him with a stone cold expression.

"do you have any idea how many people i've killed? how many innocent people just like you i brutally murdered? you don't know anything about me. this place is dark and you won't stay. you're going back once it's safe. end of story." jihoon said as he stood up and began to walk towards the house.

soonyoung wanted to get up and chase jihoon but his body wouldn't move. he wanted to yell for him but when he opened his mouth it felt dry and impossible to talk. soonyoung just sat there helpless as his love walked away from him. soonyoung felt his eyes sting as his tears fall down his face. he laid back onto the grass and looked at the darkening sky and cried.

he let his tears fall as the sky turned black and was speckled with stars. soonyoung hadn't felt pain like this before and he hated it. he was helpless. by now he had ran out of tears and just laid there like a corpse as he just admired the sky.

"soonyoung?" someone said and soonyoung looked over to see seungcheol walking towards him.

"what's wrong?" seungcheol asked as he sat down on the grass next to soonyoung.

"nothing-"

"don't lie. why are you crying?" seungcheol said as he interrupted soonyoung and soonyoung just sat up and pulled his knees to his chest.

"i told jihoon i didn't want to go back and he got mad and walked off.. i wanted to f-follow him but i just s-sat here like a f-fool.." soonyoung said as his voice began to break as he got towards the end. seungcheol placed a hand on his back and gently rubbed his back.

"im not sure what all you know and it's not really my place but jihoon has been through a lot. he's had a horrible life. he does not wish this life style upon his worst enemies let alone someone special like you." seungcheol explained and soonyoung just wiped away the few tears that fell.

"you come from a loving family and a happy life while all jihoon is known is loneliness and despair.. you showed him something wonderful and he's afraid. afraid to lose you and afraid to leave you." seungcheol continued as he looked at the sky and talked. soonyoung listened as his heart and head screamed at him for being such a fool.

"he's aware of all of the lives he's taken along with how innocent you are. he'd do anything to preserve you from that.. even if it is doing the painful thing and sending you away from him." seungcheol said as he looked to soonyoung. seungcheol had some tears in his eyes but they never fell, he had never felt sadness like he did when he met jihoon and heard his story.

"if you're willing to leave everyone behind and go after jihoon then be my guest but you can't give up with him.. he's going to try and push you-"

"i don't care how much he pushes me! i'll always come back!" soonyoung said as he sprung to his feet and began running for the house.

seungcheol just chuckled as he stood up and brushed off his pants. he felt slightly relieved that jihoon had someone like soonyoung in his life now but he also was nervous for jihoon. he didn't want jihoon to do something he'd regret and lose soonyoung forever.

"jihoon-"

"go away." jihoon interrupted as soonyoung came into his room.

jihoon was laying there shirtless as he looked at the ceiling. his eyes were puffy and red and his face was still damp. soonyoung sighed and walked over to his bed and sat on the edge of it.

"what are you doing?" jihoon asked as he made eye contact with soonyoung. soonyoung just smiled and placed a hand on jihoon's cheek.

"something i should've done a while ago." soonyoung replied as he placed his lips against jihoon's.

he kissed him.

• author's notes •

eheheheheheeee it's about time amirite :) well i hope you all enjoyed this chapter !! im having fun writing this book again <3

-lilly