Her Invisible Smile

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Dear journal,

Today was another GREAT day! I finally apologized!! I talked to her!! I TALKED to her!!!

I ACTUALLY SPOKE TO HER.

I just cant get over it....wow.

I mean, SHE DIDNT IGNORE ME. She just listened and I'M SO GLAD. And I thought she was trying to ignore me again like yesterday!!

Let me tell you how it started~!!

I, at first, thought throughly if I should approach her in the morning but decided not to or else it might be considered stalking and I'd be damned if she freaks out. And as time pass by, I went to the cafeteria for my sustenance and headed out. Eating inside was too suffocating so I never really eat inside.

As I looked around, I saw her at a nearby bench all alone. Apparently I strode over to her in another attempt to poke her but stopped mid-way. First off, I was curious as to what she was staring at as it was worth leaving her unbitten sandwich left in the open air of germs.

I realized she was staring onto the horizon. She was infact, staring at nothing.

I raised a brow bewildered by the fact that she hasn't notice me, who is currently standing beside her. I stood there for what seemed like a century!

Okay, I'm aware of how mawkish I am right now. Maybe not a century but for like a minute or so....actually it was like an hour....just kidding! I guess she just sat there placidly for a minute then opted to speak up.

I have to be honest with you, I literally jolted as she spoke up. It was the very first time she had done that. I guess people do change as months or years run by.

She stated that I looked like I needed to say something crucial to her and told me to disclose it now. If I have to explain the way she said it.......then I dont know what to tell you.

Because the moment she stood up and faced me, all I see around her was dim. It was too dim, she was too dim. I felt like if I get distracted any moment she might dissapear from my sight, like a ghost.

I immediately drove away those thoughts and gazed at her. And then.....

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I am too embarassed to go on from here...... I did something completely inane before I apologized and I'm regretting it right now.

Whatever! After the short conversation with her I immediately apologized to her and eased my dubious conscience! And thats what matters!

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God I feel so stupid right now, oh god.

-Alex

[These continuous dots are actually him leaving blank spaces, so if theres 3 dots then he obviously skipped 3 lines. And so on~]