Mono || knj ff (Completed✔️)

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Naomi's POV

I got ready to meet Namjoon. Which clothes to wear? I was feeling really dark, and I felt like I needed to protect myself. So, I decided to wear all black, black jeans, black sweatshirt and a mini bulletproof vest and some chains here and there. I know I had over dressed but I wear how I feel. I felt like today will be dark and my heart will be broken and this mini bulletproof vest will protect it. And these chains are for confidence. Am I the only who does this? Yeah? No?.

"Mama I'm going out, I'll be back for dinner hopefully." I yell as I make my way to the door. "Naomi come here for a sec" my mom yelled back. And I went to her in the kitchen "Yeah?" I asked

"Woah, who died? Why you wearing all black honey?" My mom asks after scanning my clothes. "You wearing that mini bulletproof vest, what happened? Because I know for a fact that when you wear it you are afraid and say you are protecting yourself."

Ah! See why I love this woman she knows how I feel before I even say anything. She's been supporting me since birth even after my 'transformation' and has been nothing but a very important person in my life. She is truly my  rock. And in the most difficult times of our lifes she stayed strong for all of us. Well mostly for me.

Like they say in South Africa "Mosadi o tshwara thipa ka bohaleng" and "Wathint'umfazi wathint'imbokodo."
("A woman holds the knight of the sharp end" and "You strike a woman you strike a rock")

But I wish I could say the same for my dad though. Don't get me wrong I love him but he isn't the most err-wonderful/happy/supportive- err person you'll ever meet in your life. But he's fine.

"Yeah something did happen.." I said sitting down on the counter.
"A boy?" I nodded. "Remember when I came back late last night? I was with him. But Hoseok came and ruined the whole things and he kinda opened my eyes."

"What did he do?" She asked me as she  sat down next to me.

"He asked me if the guy I met knew who I truly am. So today I'm going to meet him and tell him because I like him and want us to be transparent with each other. And if he doesn't accept me then it was not meant to be" I tell her. 

I talked  to her more for a couple of minutes and  she motivated me like the motivational speaker she is.  I went to the park and found Namjoon there. He was standing next to the swings and he looked so LONG, I wonder what else is long in his body - shit already thinking about dirty things. 

Get your head together Naomi.

"Hey?" I startled him. And God did he look good. He was wearing a simple white t-shirt with jeans and a custard coloured  jersey around his waist, a converse and a blue cap . Simple yet hot. As my eyes trailed down his body I noticed his veiny arms shit he can totally choke me with those. I-

Naomi please fix your head! Stop staring before he notice - too late he saw me.

"Take a picture it'll last longer " he chuckled whilst doing silly poses. This handsome bitch just had to make it obvious that I was checking him out. "Pft whatever." I hugged him, I'm so short compared to him.

"You look beautiful today, I really like that mini bulletproof vest of yours." He smiled down at me showing me his beautiful dimples. Our babies will be very beautiful- oh wait we won't have babies because of what I'm about to tell him. Life is truly an unfair thing.

"Thanks, you don't look bad yourself. How are you?" we walk to nearest bench. "Im worried" his smile faded "about you. How are you feeling last time we talked you didnt sound like yourself. What happened after you that Hoe - something guy left?"