Inhale

Treize

It has been a whole month since I've seen Jordan in the coffee shop.

                                                      At first I just thought he was busy, but now I feel like I've lost him.

                               It's kind of pathetic since he was never mine, but why does my heart ache and my mind wanders to Jordan all day and all my hands really want to do is feel his hair?

                              Why do my lips burn?

Why do I feel as if the only way to burn the fire out is to feel his lips connect to mine?

Why do I forget to breathe when think of him?

              And once agian I forget to inhale as I sit on my bed staring at absolutely nothing.

                       What has he done to me?

                                                                          I know the answer, but I'm terrified to admit it.

                     There's a difference between saying it in your mind and actually saying it out loud.

                          Saying it out loud makes it real and I don't know if I want it to be real or not.

                 "I have fallen hard for Jordan Fallon." I say to myself.

                                                  Instantly I  wish I could take those words back, but I know that they are true and that there is no backspace in reality.

                                             In life.

 

                                                                Why do I feel as if I don't inhale him, I might as well be labelled as dead?

                                             Why do I feel lonely?