Her Name Was

Chapter One: Video Me

This is so weird. I am in love with her. WITH A HER?! INSANE but magical.

But i don't know her name.

I am now in front of my personal computer, battling myself if i should type it all down or just let lose my sanity. I've been up and crazy all day and all night thinking of what happened. What did happen?

I just decided to type. I would like to keep my sanity instead. I opened the computer, typed down my password, looked for the word application and stared blankly at the blank space with a blinking vertical line waiting for a word to be typed. I did not hesitate and so i typed like i've had never typed before. And it started off with this...

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Aagghhhhhhh! I banged my head on the keyboard and it pretty much did nothing but make my head hurt even more. This is really pissin' me off. A while back, i was talking to myself, minutes later i was staring out of nowhere and now? i'm trying to be a writer. What's happening to me? This is because of her.

It's her all over again. Why can't i get over? Aagghhhhhh! Now i'm randomly clicking on my mouse and just randomly hitting anything. Until it hit.. it hit my porn folder.

No, just kidding, i don't watch porn, i swear. My family is very religious but sometimes pretentious and i don't even care at all. The community loves my family.

Going back to my problem, i accidentally clicked on my web cam and there goes my stressed face before me. Lines under my bulging eyes, looks like sleep hates me! I got darker because of that vacation i had, thinner because i cut down my diet for no reason and mind? Still a blur. Then an idea came rushing through my head. Why not make a video. Since the point here is to relieve everything that's on my mind, why not say it all out on a video for a sense of relief? Hmmm

Here goes... (click)

Hi.. uh. My name is Alyssa. Alyssa Valdez. I just got this wild idea to just say everything out of my mind because.. it.. it's troubling me lately and i'm thinking that telling it through this is the best way to do so. Uhh, how should i start this? Uhmmm, ok. Let me begin with this. It has always been a question as to how people find their other half, right? A better half, mostly they assume.

I don't even know as to why people think that they really do have this 'better half' 'soul mate' or whatever, just someone whom they can treat as very special to them. Oh, i remember, it has something to do with a myth. Yes, a myth.

A mythology from the greeks saying that humans were originally created with four arms, four legs and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves!

  -lightning strike with thunder sound-

Whoa! I was startled for a moment there. Phew, it's raining hard outside. Well yeah, I'm a greek geekish geek, you could say that and that's just how powerful and ancient love could get, romantic eh? No not for me. Never.

I am no stranger to these ideas, to think that i am someone who never actually experienced lo..loo-h..lo..ve. See? I can't even pronounce it right. Ok, i'm just exaggerating, Love. There, happy? And i know all of you are itching already for this lovey dovey to commence with a once upon a time turned to a happy ever after.

Not quite i suppose.

I had a vacation. A one week vacation alone in Palawan, Puerto Prinsesa specifically. A gift from my parents for a job well done at school. I graduated with honorable mention during graduation last two months ago. Exciting right? It really was and i've never been so right my whole life. Because that moment i chose to have this vacation, i've already let something spectacular happen in my life and that's not the scuba diving part nor the sky diving part, i love diving in any way possible by the way, but rather the part where i met her. Yes her.