Never letting you go (Ferard/Rikey)

Chapter 3 Mikey's P.O.V

It's only 4th period and I'm already bored. I texted my mom to see if ray and Frank could stay over. Rays been over at my house before but not Frank. Only my mom knows I have a crush on him. I mean how could any one not, has just so perfect. However Rays straight and would never want to date me. No one does. I'm just a small nerdy looking kid with glasses who plays a glittery bass guitar.

It took a few minutes for my mom to reply. She said it was alright as long as we didn't break anything. Our mom would be gone all spring break for a business trip. She's leaving tomorrow morning, Saturday.

I texted Ray ' Hey, my mom said you can come over and stay the night if you want. Or a few nights... ' instantly he replied ' Alright, I can stay the weekend, my dad wants me to help him with work ' I couldn't help but smile a little. I then texted Frank the same thing and said he'd stay the whole week. I sent a final text to my brother saying I was gonna have a couple of friends stay over for spring break. He read the message but didn't reply. Not like it really mattered anyway he always stayed in his room.

I worry about Gerard sometimes. I knew he had depression and anxiety. A few times when I went into his room to grab some dishes he had piled up in a corner I'd notice a gun laying on his bed and a rope on the loveseat under a few pillows. When I first saw the gun I'd figure it was for protection cuz he took over our dads position. Our dad had left shortly after I was born not wanting anything to do with us. The rope I saw I thought was for hanging pictures up or something. That was what I thought at the time cuz I was just 14, not knowing anything about suicide. However I quickly figured it out a few months later when I had a nightmare and I went to go see Gerard for comfort, when I had gotten closer to the door I could see his light was on so I knew he was up, I had open the door slightly to peak in when I saw my brother holding the gun right to his temple. Scared, I had closed the door quietly and knocked. When he opened the door I could see the gun under his pillow. Not really knowing what to do about what I had just saw so I told him about the night mare I had.

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I had skipped lunch to do my homework so I didn't have to do it over break. I had finished 10 minutes early so I decided to draw on a extra price of paper. I drew me and Ray, holding hands with the words 'together forever' in 3d lettering. Gerard had tought me that when I was 11. He's thought me everything I know today. I myself ain't much of an artist but Gee is. He only tought me because I was failing art class. For only having 10 minutes to draw it looked pretty good. I tossed it into my bag with my other papers and went to class before the bell rang.