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Day 3

"It was raining... I have been waiting for this since long time, it barely happens when it rains genuinely in this city... opening my palms wide I have been holding those rain drops as if they were pearl dropping from the sky... water was flowing after being gathering in my hand it feels so cold... cold as if this is the peace cold as if all the miseries are being washed with these flowing drops... Raining... yes, it is raining and I have been walking in this rain from last two hours, I am far away from home now.... don't know how I managed to walk this long... but for now I want to be here for a while... in this environment which holds peace in it, the noises of traffic and human chattering has been faded away I can't hear them anymore... I want to be here..."

Dear Diary,

Life never shows us its same aspects on daily basis, sometimes it shows the bitter phase of our situation, when we find some moments for ourselves we prefer to ignore them but when we found ourselves already in a mess, then we start realizing what exactly is going on in front of our eyes, these miseries or problems or you can say situations can be arise from any where doesn't matter if it is your personal life or professional, things use to happen a lot, some of us name it as a mess, some of us name it as a misery, some of it name it as a problem, and some of us deal them like "urghh! It's a daily task why should I bother", we can't conclude who is going through what or what is happening with whom, but when we sit in front of people our mindset screams according to them... like some started trying to prove that their happening or situation were worst than the one who just ended up telling his or her, or some are there prefer to stay quiet after listening others, thinking that might be possible that their problem is actually not a problem, these second option people are sometimes right but sometimes they are the one who suffer later on... that's why I said that we can't conclude that who is going through what, every soul takes the situation in alter mood, sometimes leading these situations we stop talking to people just to be sure that they shouldn't know that something is wrong with us but sometimes we keep on banging our problems on each other just to know if someone bothers... well I will say that it work like "number of minds leads to the number of thoughts" we can't deal with them in a single row... so better to listen or to say to them who wants to seek help or wants to come out of the situations nor the one who just keep bragging about their own besides listening someone, to my point Dairy I hate those people because they only leads your mood towards negative aspect of life ignoring the fact that they never tried to make anything positive, and when they are your known it affects you doesn't matter whether they are the close ones or the far ones or the casual ones, the only thing matters is they want help but they don't take it, keep on showing them superior instead. And what can we do in such situations is still a mystery for us.... and Getting irritated with all of these cases I walked out of my room in a rush stamping my phone over the bed as if I am never going to use it again... well it was a decision made in a rush but I guess it proved somewhat right... I was in a such enraged mood that while walking towards the park I forgot that it's other end leads the way towards the woods, though people call it a park but I prefer to consider it as a ridge because it is the narrow path craved out for walking in the woods, I entered the woods unknowingly, but kinda felt relaxed there, the sound of traffic and chattering voices of the people were fading away, one few voices of people I was able to listen, I guess they were those who prefer peace than socializing... I was mesmerized with the colors in front of me that scenario was something so special as if I am not in any kind of scary place but the place filled with beauty instead... it was the time when it suddenly started raining.... that was the time when I noticed that I am not carrying my phone with me... well it lead to some kind of positive aspects as now I was free to feel the moment so I decided to enjoy it while walking in search of the exit, those rain drops were touching my face slowly after drenching my hair completely that's when I decided open my palm and feel there presence... the drops were gathered in my palm soon and then flown down from it... I was staring it and realized it that as the rain drop is... so is the human emotion... they gathers like these rain drops and when it fills the heart same as this palm they needs to be flown... if not, then they become stagnant and brings negativity, just like this rain water which was filled in those pits and if not cleaned will bring lots of disease, rain was same... just the places of falling for drops were different so is the emotion... they are same everywhere, but what makes them different is the treatment we give them. I guess I got a new lesson for myself... what say?

Yours 

Niharika