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this doesn't feel right

i woke up the next day still weirded out by what had happened the day before, it all just seemed so surreal.

peeking my head through the the door frame to check if anyone was there i dashed to the bathroom, i had already taken off my shirt and pants and was only in my bra and underwear as i didnt want to put them on again if i didnt have to. today i was going to an interview or rather an audition for a new movie i was hoping to be in and needed to get ready fast.

"hey you" said a voice from behind me as they snaked their arms around my parcially naked frame, i knew who it was. they pinned me roughly against the wall and began to kiss down my neck. i wimpered tilting my head to the side in disgust "dad get off me" i wispered as i wiggled against his grip. "next time sweetheart" he said winking at me before walking downstairs.

i stood frozen, before i knew it a wave of nausea overcame me and i ran into the bathroom puking violently in the toilet.

i ran a hot shower and tried to wash his touch off me as hot tears began to spill down my flushed cheeks. my dad had always been touchy  like this, but it was my 13th birthday when things really became bad, that was when he raped me. i remember feeling so helpless that day, and all thoes emotions came back to me now.

i knew i couldn't let this get to me, i had a very important job interview today which i needed to get ready for. hopping out of the shower i hurriedly got dressed, and ran downstairs stopping at the base like i had done so many times before. after checking that everything was clear i left the stairwell, and rushed outside to my car.

it was drizzling when i pulled up to the studio, as i got out of the car the rain became harder, and i rushed inside as to not let my hair get any wetter than it already was.

"hello miss Winslet, Mr Cameron is waiting inside his office" said a slightly high pitched voice, i looked over at the blond receptioist who smiled at me and pointed toward his office, "thank you" i replied making my way over to the dark wooden door, and slowly pushing it open. there was james cameron alongside jeramy Sisto who i recognized from clueless.

h-hi i said smiling as i walking into the room, Jeramy walking over to me and shook my had rather forcefully before sitting back down, 
"Kate this is Jeramy, Jeramy this is Kate" spoke James as he introduced us. "hey" i replied awkwardly staring at Jeramy, his eyes weren't quit as striking as Leos but nevertheless hes was still quite attractive.

"so lets get to the screen test" said cameron directing me to the other side of the large room which displayed an old looking couch and a fire place and mantle which held many small ornate objects. my heart started to beat loudly as a camera crew entered the room and took their places in front of the set, two women ushered me into a changing room were i was given a beautiful white dress, and my hair was pinned up.

i felt like a princess, my now curly red hair lay in an ornate bun of the top of my head, the kind you'd have at your fancy grand mothers party. i didnt have a fancy grand mother or one at all actually however i suspected that this was the case. the dress hung around my frame beautifully, and a black band wrapped around it, tightening the gown around my waist and excentuating my hips.

"Kate you look absolutely lovely, and Jeramy i think the look suits you." said James as he positioned us in our respective spots.

aaaaaaaand action yelled James as he clasped his hands together in anticipation. Jeramy was the first to be on the film in the screening test, slowly he sat down on the couch picking up a pair of binoculars and studying them. it was now my turn to enter, "hello jack" he looked around quickly before standing up and taking off his cap "hi" he said "could i speak to you?" i asked which were the lines i had studied. "yes of course" replied Jeramy before sitting alongside me on the couch.

"i wanted to thank you" "oh thank you" said jeramy awkwardly "oh i mean" i laughed, "i mean thank you for thanking me, i mean your welcome" he said. there was a long pause, i could already tell that this screen tested wasn't going well, Jeramy was almost well whats the word stifling? nevertheless i continued.

"i feel like such an idiot, it took me all morning to get up the nerve to face you." i spoke "your not an idiot, but yeah if you would have let go of that railing you would have been a first class idiot" said Jeramy, "yes" i replied "a first class idiot". there was another long pause.

"would you really have jumped after me?" i asked reciting my lines, "i don't know" said jeramy clearing his throat, "an honest answer?" i inquired looking into his brown eyes "well i might of" said Jeramy which wasn't all that funny but the script said that i was supposed to laugh, so i did. "you know it just popped into my head, i was trying to get you to do something" he was reciting his lines perfectly but the chemistry wasn't there. i began to speak again "yes people are always trying to get me to do something they think is best" there was another long awkward pause.

the rest of the audition was just as awkward as it had started, and i felt so frustrated with Jeramy, i didnt quite know why it was just something about his personality that irritated me and i wasn't able to quite put my finger on it.

"well it looks like we have our rose, spoke cameron beaming brightly as he grabbed my hand and smiled at me. i stood there in shock, i got the fucking part oh my god! i beamed and hugged james tightly not wanting to let go, this was absolutely crazy, i couldn't wrap my head around it.

Jeramy walked over to me and hugged me tightly, "im so happy for you" he said beaming, i could tell he was proud of me. "as for you jeramy im not completely sure your right for the part, you have a very stern act and we are looking more for a playful guy." said cameron, "i completely understand" said Jeramy as he gathered his things. turning to me he playfully punched me on the shoulder and smiled before saying "good luck Kate." i was beaming from ear to ear, i couldn't wait to tell my family, however i wasn't exactly sure how they would take it.