what lies beneath - Greenflame

Mistakes Happen

Kai's POV

When I get back to my hotel room, I feel sick.

I was the reason Lloyd left.

Before I know it, the tears are already there. But the thing is, I still don't know who to believe. I know I should be believing Lloyd...But I don't know whats stopping me. It's just this sick pain in my gut. That's when I hear a knock on the door. I quickly wipe the tears from my face, and sniff, so I don't look like an idiot.

'Who is it?' I say.

'It's Nya.' She says from the other side.

'Oh, ok. You can come in.' I respond. She opens the door and walks in, before completely taking me off guard by hugging me. 

'I know you needed that.' She says after she pulls away and sits next to me. 

'You know I don't like hugs, I only make an exception with people I love. Your lucky your my sister.' I stick my tongue out at her. She laughs and rolls her eyes.

'I know you know you needed that. Breaking up with someone you love is hard.' She says. I stare out the window, and I can feel my eyes glistening with tears. When I speak my voice breaks.

'I know. I just don't like sharing my feelings with a bunch of people. It's just overwhelming. Thats why I left. I knew everyone would ask me why me and Lloyd broke up.' I say and stare back at her. She gives me a sad look.

'I hope you don't mind me asking but, why did you two break up?' She says.I hesitate on telling her, but I know I can tell Nya, she is my sister after all.

'Well, it's a long story.' I start. I tell her everything that happened last night. As I speak, I realise more and more how much Lloyd stood up for himself. He was only sticking to one theory. Was he telling the truth?

UGH! Why can't I believe him?! 

'Kai. Why would Lloyd ever do that to someone he loves from the bottom of his heart?' She says sternly. 'Thats the only thing I am going to say until you realise the truth.'

Why would Lloyd do that?

It's all sinking in now. And thats when I start crying.

I can't believe I have doubted my own boyfriend. The person I love with every single inch of my body. 

What have I done?

As I'm breaking down, Nya rubs my shoulder. 'Hey, everyone makes mistakes. And it's hard to face them, but you have too.' I lean my head against the glass and look up at the sky. I can't believe I've let someone that special to me, just slip away because I couldn't control my anger. I look at Nya and wipe my eyes. 'Thank you. Thank you for helping me realise what I've done. I was just so angry and tired, I took it all out on the person I love.' I say. Nya smiles at me and gives me another hug. 'I'm proud of you. I'll try and talk to Skylor. But what I want you to do, is as soon as you get home, I want you to talk to Lloyd. It's your choice though.'

'Of course I will. Thank you so much.' I say tightly hug her for the, like, fourth time. She laughs and grabs my shoulders. 

'I love you big bro, I'm always here for you, got it?'

'Got it. Love you too.'  

Nya left the room and I turned to my phone. I debated on calling Lloyd, but I ended doing it. He didn't answer. I was upset, but I should've expected that. I sighed, put my phone down and got into bed. I layed down in bed and tortured myself with memories of me and Lloyd. Bye the time I fell asleep, I'm pretty sure I had tear marks under my eyes.

~The Next Morning~

'Hey Kai, you OK?' Jay asks me when where out at a little café. I nod and take a sip of my coffee. 'Kai, you know you can tell us anything. We support you.' Jay says. 

'Nya can tell you and Cole tonight. Pretty sure Skylor and Renée already know.' I say and get up. Everyone looks at me confused, but I say I'm going up to my room for a bit, and they can come get me when where going out. I'm actually going to mine and Lloyds old room, just in case he or I left anything in there. When I get into the room, I stand there and scan it. I see a shimmering piece of jewellery sitting on the bed.

It can't be.

I walk over to the bed, and examine it. It is the necklace I gave him. The one with the carving 'My Forever Boy'. The anger starts up again. Why would he leave that here? Like, I get that he might be sad and all and doesn't want that anymore, but it doesn't mean that he can just leave something as special as that in a hotel, in New York! I take the necklace and carefully put it in my pocket. I look around, hoping to find my hoodie, but it's not in here. Lloyd must've taken it without noticing. I leave the room, locking it behind me. The rest of the day,  I'm droopy and miserable. I don't really have the effort to do anything. By the time the end of the week rolled by, I was an emotional wreck. When we started to pack, I was pretty upset. I love New York, even though it completely ruined my life. (Well not completely, but you get what I mean.) 

'Kai! You coming? Where all ready to go now.' Cole says, from outside my room. I yell back 'Yeah' and gather my belongings. As I'm walking down the hallway with Cole, he says he feels bad about what happened. I guess Nya did end up telling them. When we get to the main entrance of the airport, I feel weird. Like somethings about to happen, but I don't know how to control it. And then I start crying, out of know where. I didn't even feel like crying before! This is probably the most I've cried since my mum and dad left. I was, like, five or whatever. It's so long ago I don't even remember. It's not full bursting-with-tears crying, just tears escaping my eyes every now and then. Nya and the guys keep saying are you OK and stuff, but I'm not in the mood. As soon as I get home, I head straight to my room. And the first thing I notice is,

All of Lloyds stuff is gone.