My Book of Randomness

Deep Thoughts (part 1?)

Disclaimer: YOU DO NOT HAVE TO READ THIS UNLESS YOU ARE THAT BORED, THIS IS RANDOM STUFF THAT IS NOT IMPORTANT OR RELEVANT TO ANYTHING IMPORTANT ABOUT MY ACCOUNT. But read if you want. :)

Do you ever just think about things really deeply?

Like: what is the meaning of life, why do we exist, what is out there in the universe, how does anything work, in other dimensions can there be such things as new shapes, new colors, things like that? Things that our mind can't even comprehend? There are things that our mind can't COMPREHEND-

But have you ever thought of this: death. (I'm not about to talk about what you probably think I'm gonna talk about, don't worry)

What about it? Well, I don't know, I started thinking: death- it's so sudden, so random, it can happen at any time, in any place. You could be at the highest peak in life, or in the lowest, and then suddenly, it's over.

And it's permanent. That's crazy, right? No? I'm the only one that thinks that? Ok well...

You can live your entire life, such a successful, happy life, and it would be over, just like that. No one can prevent it, it happens when it happens and it happens to everyone.

But then it's permanent. You just- disappear from the world. Everything you have achieved, everything you have hoped to achieve is gone in an instant. Because of one moment in time, one hour, one minute, one SECOND- it's like everything you have done is now just fading away.

But then you think- my existence must have made some impact, right? I don't know what humans are put on this earth to do- to make other people happy? Then why do the people we make happy exist? Just- it's a never ending loop that goes around and around, and we are all connected.

If there is a God above, why did he put us here, on this planet? We suffer in countless ways. Yet, we still exist, we still continue to reproduce and make more of us; it's just a repeating cycle. It's so confusing to think deeply about what's going on, and then you think, I can't comprehend this. My mind cannot comprehend why we exist, how things work, nothing really makes sense, and It never fully will.

But then here's something else you can think about: what if life on earth isn't the main point? Hear me out: what if, our life on earth, our LIFE, our time of living, is to prepare us for what happens after life? What if our existence isn't about living: it's about what happens after that, what happens BEYOND that point. Maybe, death isn't permanent, but life is temporary. Maybe, death, or what happens after life, is our entire point of existence, and life is just the first, small step. Maybe, after life, our true meaning begins to form. Maybe that's why death is a thing.

And now I'm thinking: if our death isn't our main point of existence, then what is the point of death in the first place? Imagine if death weren't a thing- we just all thrived in our life, if we lived forever. If death doesn't mean anything except a permanent disconnection from life, then why is death a thing? If life were more important than death, which proves my point, maybe death is a thing for a reason, a reason our living minds might not be able to comprehend.

I don't know, I just find it so mind-blowing. Why is death a thing, is the after-life the main point for existence, is death a permanent thing that happens in the time span of maybe a second? It's like, one moment you are alive, the next you are stepping into the next stage of existence. Imagine if there is a step AFTER death? I mean- there's the process of dying, but the minute someone actually dies, it can happen in a second, one moment in time. It makes absolutely no sense to me, and the harder I think about it, the more confusing it gets.

But yah, these are my random thoughts I have. Very deep and random and yah.

I just- I'll give you a moment to process this.

Also: um... if I had triggered anybody with this, sorry, I'm just sharing my random thoughts with people I don't even know because it's so mind-blowing to me. NOTHING makes sense, much less this, how can you not be astonished and amazed by these type of things? Aaaah my mind can't take it, why do I have these thoughts, it's just confusing me siakhdosnsie.

Well yah, mmk, those are the thoughts I just had, put best into words as I could have them, have a good day, please tell me if this "triggered" you in any way, I don't want to offend anyone or something like that. 'K, bai.👋