I've just been out of a relationship. It scarred me, if I'm being honest. It's scary how you fall in so deep, but in the end, both of you will just be strangers once again.
I wonder why it works that way. When you're everything to each other but once you fall apart, it's like both of you never met. Faceless strangers but the memories remain, shattering into thousands of pieces. All lost. All the fragments of happiness that ever existed with them will all drain down into oblivion.
Some come back. The longing for each other is strong and that causes the memories to build back in its rightful place and you get to relive the moments of warmth.
Some don't. And it breaks you. It breaks you but there's always a chance for a next one, right? Sometimes... the next one doesn't work out. Then the next one or the one following after your previous next. SO WHEN? When will I find the person who will truly hold my heart forever?
I'm just sick and tired of it already.
But I'm stupid too. Love makes you do things. Good things. Dumb things. Still, I didn't care. I love the person. So I fell in love once again with the first boy who broke my heart.
I knew what I was in for, but I was stubborn and refused to leave him until he, once again, left me. As quick as that.
I continued going on about my life. I, step by step, started to push away the memories of you. When you were completely gone, I was happy. I was still getting crushes here and there but love? I didn't know when it would come again. I didn't shut the whole thought out but my mind was getting oblivious to it. I was forgetting it because, for some reason, it felt right.
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a lifetime with you
Любовные романыI never thought that I'd be able to feel love again. I've been through relationships that... I knew would never last. I've went through the pain, of being left behind. Until I met you.
