Make it Good (book 1)

Chapter thirty five

After chatting with the girls for around an hour or so I went to my room. I text Ben 'have a good show tonight x' I didn't get a reply but then looking at the time I realised the concert would have already started. I put my phone down and laid down on my bed thinking about the day, I pressed play on my stereo.
As the words 'and as I look into your eyes, I see an angel in disguise, sent from God above for me to love, to hold and idolise' sang out, I couldn't help smiling thinking of Ben singing those words to me on stage. I know he didn't know who I was at that moment but I couldn't help imagining that he knew exactly who I was and meant every word he sang.
*beep beep* my phone dragged me back out of my little dream, although as I looked at the screen and saw the name 'Ben 💖' I suddenly wasn't as annoyed at being disturbed from the dream. "thanks for the msg, had a great 1st half :) what u upto tonight? X"
"Nothing much, just been thinking about today and how great it's been 😊 I mean how fab that u finally got your black card eh? lol" I text him back he replied in seconds "that was only the 2nd best thing about today x" I smiled and text him back "oh really? Was the first meeting your fans earlier? x" I could picture his face smiling as he read my messages. "Yeh actually there's this one special fan that made my day great I think you know her ;)" my heart skipped a beat as I read his message I couldn't believe he was feeling like this about me, plain ordinary me?!
Another text came through "enjoy your night, I'll call you after the show - I have some news 😃" I was intrigued but knew he wouldn't tell me until later "I'll try my best although after being sung to by some gorgeous popstar last night tonight's just not gonna compare" I text him back
He replied "I'll be thinking of you tonight during that song x" I knew he would be due back on stage anytime now so I fought my urge to text him back again. This man was making me a little crazy I thought as I sat there grinning like the cat who got the cream. I tried to think about something else I knew I had to protect myself, I had already let him in too far he now had the power to hurt me. I told myself I'd go slow from now on, not let myself fall any deeper til I knew I could trust him. I knew I was fooling myself though, deep down I knew I'd already fallen and fallen hard.