Amnesia{CalumHood}

{thirteen}

{2 years ago}
I looked down at my hands,I was still holding the letter opener.

I knew I had to do it

Cas,don't. You'll only make yourself worse

Do it Cassandra. You hate him, You despise him. He doesn't want to help you;he thinks you're a screw up,like everyone else in this miserable world.

Voices echoed around my head and all I wanted to do was something.

Something.

So do it. He makes your life hell.

If anything,you're doing him a favour Cas. You're taking him away from all the the shit here on earth.
It's a filthy God damn world we live in.

I didn't know what to do anymore. I could see Dr.Normans mouth moving;I think he was shouting for help or something. I think he may of been begging for his life. But I didn't feel sad;I didn't feel anything.

All I ever felt was hate.
Hatred and a burning desire to kill and destroy happiness or life
I stumbled over to the door,making sure it was locked.
I then walked over to him and kicked him in the stomach. He clutched it,howling in pain.

I grabbed one of the ornaments on the mantelpiece and tried swinging it over his head. I just kept swinging ,hitting,screaming and Shouting un till the world just became one big unnecessary blur. I noticed the blood on my hands and screeched again. I heard banging on the office door and more screams. I then took the letter opener and just stabbed. Nobody cared.
Not even myself.