Chapter 5
(Flash back to 2 years ago):
Rachels pov :
I was on my way to NYADA but then when I opened the door there standing before me was finn. I smiled and gave him a hug , " oh my god! Finn what are you doing here ?"I asked " I missed you . " he told me . " I missed you too. " I said and gave him a big kiss. " so were you heading out? " he asked " yeah I have class. " I told him " okay should I just stay here then . " he asked me . " well if you want you can go out into the city and then we could meet up after class together . " I suggested. " sounds good. " he told me . I smiled, " I'll be back soon. " I told him and gave him a kiss on the cheek . later I walked into my apartment to see candles every where , "finn ? " I asked " In the kitchen. " he said . I walked into the kitchen to a candle light dinner. Finn smiled at me and gave me a kiss , " sit down . " he told me then got up took my jacket and pulled my chair out for me . I smiled " what is all this? " I asked " well I wanted to suprise you. " he told me as he poured my wine into a glass . He then sat down and raised his glass , " shall we toast? " he suggested . I nodded in agree " to 3 wonderful years of love . " he said and we tapped glasses and sipped our wine . Later after dinner we were watching funny girl and we were at the part where fanny was singing "dont rain on my parade " when finn paused the movie . He looked at me , " rachel do you love me ? " he asked . I smiled " of course I do . " I said " good cause what I'm about to do may shock you. " he told me . He then got down on one knee , my heart skipped a beat . " finn what are you doing ? " I asked nervously " Rachel Barbra berry I have loved you since the day we met and I can't live without you I know that were young but I can't think about not being with you. You are everything to me will you do me the honor and marry me? " he asked asked me . I sat there in shock not knowing what to say or do . " Rachel ? " he asked wondering if I was okay . I got up immediately shaking my head, " finn were 19 years old cant get married. " I explained to him. He looked at me in shock, " why not? We've been dating for 3 years I love you and you love me doesn't that mean anything ? " he asked me looking like he was going to burst into tears . " of course it does but it doesnt mean we're ready to get married! " I told him . " I mean I just started NYADA I have my whole life ahead of me . " I said . " don't you love me? " he asked " of course I do , I'm just not ready to get married . " I said " to me or in general? " he asked angry . I stood there not knowing what to say. "Finn. " I said " thats what I thought. " he said and stormed out of the apartment .
Finns pov :
How could this happen? Doesn't she love me enough to marry me? Am I just not good enough for her? I Spent three years of my life on her, why would she break my heart like this ? I was on the train back to Lima when she called me. I didn't pick up though. She kept calling me finally I got sick of it and picked up , " hello. " I said annoyed. " thank god you're okay where are you?" she asked me." I'm on my way back to Lima." I told her " finn I'm sorry but I'm just not ready its not your fault I love you." She told me " I'm not mad at you Rachel, I just wanted you to say yes." I told her " I know, but I'm still trying to find myself it doesn't mean I don't love you it's just, I need to concentrate on myself . " she told me. " Rachel, there's something I need to tell you. " I told her. " what is it? " she asked " I enrolled myself into the army . " I told her. She was silent for a moment , " wh...what ? Are you crazy! You'll get yourself killed ! Is this because I won't marry you? " she asked me. " No it has nothing to do with you its me . Maybe we shouldnt ....maybe we shouldn't get married. " I told her . She sighed , " I agree.
" she told me . " so where does this leave us? " I asked with tears running down my cheeks . " maybe we should break up. " she suggested . " that's what you want? " I asked " I think it would be best. " she said . " I should go. " I said ready to break down . " me too. Be safe finn. " she told me " I will, I wish you the best Rachel. " I said and hung up.
