Hartaches and Larksongs

Us Cold People (Were Once Not)

Minimal edit. A song I made fro when I was 14.

So read.

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Author of delusion

Champion of illusions

Barking up the wrong tree

In hope that you'd see me

like when you first found me,

We were all we needed,

Silent but were strident

In our hearts we acted

all the love that we felt

lost to dreams and wishes 

Now the fire has faded

Many wills come bended

Loved you as for ever,

Always and forever.

I was never better

More than in those times

Loved you in a fortnight

Loved when we were younger

My wounds had been deeper

These scars stay forever

Your name in big letters,

written o'er and over

Taking up all space and

Burning inside my head

I know I remember

Since that old December

Summer turned to winter.

Presents had meant little

Some things hard but brittle

Once we were unyielding,

clutching at the small things

that gave us our being.

Now I've come to doubting,

counting every wrong thing.

I'm content with dreaming

Of the way we first met

Walked by -in a moment

Said hello, you looked on

at me. Weight heightened by a few tons.

Time had stopped working;

Same night walls were made thin

My cold hands to your skin

Children on their first fling

I had gave that first blow

No choice but to follow

Found the bliss in front prow

Counting 'til tomorrow

All the things you won't know;

The things I never told you

Then all day I mourn. You

took my heart and hid it

And you may just have it

Just take every broken bit

Clutching glass in your hand

Wonder how you can stand

Nursing pain in that way.

All I know is one day

I'll find you in some way.

You taught me to be strong

-I've been strong for so long.

But I don't regret it.

Other fires now lit.

Small compared to last time,

last time when you were mine

Last time when we had rhymed

Now we are broken

Chords that are slit open

Sounding like a pained cry

All the times we had tried

at the wrong moments

We're a dying anthem

Loved you 'til its last breath

Final decrescendo

Blurring the da capo

Wish to rend the quartet

of this broken duet.

We belonged together

Take me back to summer

You know when I'd seen you

Only time I'd been true

True unto myself

and all this pride were not here

And I knew what trust was.

Now it's buried in dust

Would you not admit it?

You're also in scarlet,

Marred and I'm the culprit

Would you learn to forgive?

It feels wrong to let live

Though it's my turn to give

Because you shared

-And though we're all now elsewhere,

I'm grateful, I thank you.

I'd come to believe you.

It will always be you

You just had to leave soon,

Fading like an old moon.

Oh were we not happy?

 Although we had not been free

enough to not forget