The Day My Life Ended (Editing)

Chapter Twenty-Eight (Revised)

My life is like the premiere of a great movie, except no one came to see it but me. It's not like people didn't want to. Oh no, people would pay top dollar just to see a glimmer. To see the movie from commercials. To see the Grand Tale of deception, romance, hardship and pain.

But I can't let them see it. I can't let people see the things I do. The things I've done. The blood I've spilt. The pain I've endured. My mind was stuck is the curse of Traveling and my soul was forced to bare the scars.

A man once said, I wear the chains I forged in life...I made it link by link, yard by yard; I girded it on of my own free will, and of my own free will I wore it. Well, my chains are nearly as long as his. The weight has never left my shoulders, they always sag. Never reach their fullest potential.

I know that some of the links are meaningless. Made of fake fears I have hid behind. But the others couldn't be more real. The fears are real, the evil deeds forever engraved onto my soul.

Now, the chains have received more links. Some about finally letting the people I care for down. Some about failing my daughter, letting her get dragged into my problems. The heaviest was betrayal. My betrayal. To everyone.

The answer was clear in my mind as I looked down at the picture before me. Darcy Anderson. A lost soul cursed to lay dormant until I deemed fit. Her crimes nearly outweighed mine. Sadly, I can say I have done far worse than her.

She may have killed lives, but I have destroyed souls. I have crushed people of their life and the laughter that lived in each of them. Stripped them of what made them special and put in place something that almost didn't resemble a human.

Darcy was the most honest person I knew (Applejack is a pony). Meanwhile, I had to lie my ass of daily. It's almost like I'm made to be a pathological liar. Lies protect my heart from my chains. Lies protect my soul from the scars. Lies protect me, just as I protect them.

I'm the opposite of the Elements of Harmony. I lie to everyone I know. My loyalty can only hold for so long without breaking. I cannot be kind without a fake persona. Sometimes, even the greatest of tortures make me laugh at the tortured. I keep my belongings close. And friendship...

Friendship is just another lie. How can I compare to the Mane 6? How did I earn the girls I called friends? Caroline, how did I become friends with her? Why did I finally give in to my heart's desires? Anna, Lauren, Becca, Maddie. Each I have lied to one way or another.

My parents, they too have tried to break down my walls. Nearly succeeding if the fake fears hadn't taken over. My family, all having been lied to.

And my daughter...my sweet innocent daughter that did nothing wrong. She was dragged into all of this. Her blissful life was gone now, she would only see what lies her mother had told her. The life I lived without her. She would question my words. Even in her nightmare, I heard her scream my name and saw the tears fall as I knew I didn't save her.

My sister knew my lies. She knew them well, and held them just as tightly. Betraying her was a terrible sin. None should ever forgive me for this. It'll be the force that finally pushes everyone away. They will be safe. My sister might not forgive me, and it'll handle all of my problems.

"I know, it sounds confusing. But let me explain some more about Darcy before you start to judge." I began.

"Darcy?" Caroline asked.

I winced. "So. Girls. Remember Killjoy?"

All of them widened their eyes. Dash frowned, glaring.

"Your crazy twin sister, yeah." Dash said. "What? Is she almost here?"