Brandon
I am used to living with her so days like this I find myself so confused not knowing how I should react. I have her in my thoughts day and night. This long-distance is killing me. It only takes me an hour to reach her institution but I have no powers to go there. She made endless promises that she will invite me in as soon as she finds her feet, as soon as she is settled but I am still waiting for the invite. Only if I had things my way I would've been spending each weekend on her residence. I was staring at some pictures we took. She seems happy to be around me, I really miss this soul. I was going through every picture zooming in and out ensure not to miss every single part. I exited the Gallery and went to the contract list. I called her, she promised me that she will get back to me yesterday but she never did, the phone stopped ringing and there was a moment of silence, I checked on my phone only to find that the call is been answered, for the first time I waited to hear what she had to say.
Monica: Babe
Brandon: ( That came in a low voice, I could tell that guilty was written all over her face) Hello my love, did I caught you at the wrong time?
Monica: No, your timing is right I just needed some time off from my books, the little break won't hurt
Brandon: You don't know how does it feel like to hear your voice
Monica: I missed you pumpkin
Brandon: Stop calling me that
Monica: I am sorry my Pumpkin
Brandon: I quit
Monica: You have no choice, how have you been?
Brandon: So good thanks and yourself?
Monica: I am still trying to fit in on this new environment, it's hard to adjust with this workload
Brandon: It's been two months now
Monica: It's hard for me, I just miss home and you
Brandon: I am still waiting for your invitation
Monica: Umh Brandon I don't think its a good idea, you know how residents are like with their protocols and besides that, I am always in class if not occupied
Brandon: Oh okay if you say so( there was an awkward moment of silence, she cleared her throat)
Monica: How is everybody?
Brandon: They are fine I believe, your mother says I have been lonely recently
Monica: She knows that we always together
Brandon: I believe, she even monitors me this day
Monica: Are you going to survive?
Brandon: I don't know but I will be fine
Monica: Let's talk later I want to prepare something to eat so that I return to my studies
Brandon: Okay, please take... umh Monica
She hanged up, I exhaled before I could put down my phone, I feel like I am not talking with my girlfriend, It felt differently, she is weird. I send her a text on WhatsApp
***WhatsApp text***
Brandon: Sometimes I wonder if you miss me( She blue ticked me, after about 2 minutes she started typing)
Monica: I miss you so hard
Brandon: Ooh
Monica: Why does it feel like you doubting me
Brandon: I just don't know what to believe
Monica: Have you started developing insecurities?
Brandon: You are becoming a stranger to me
Monica: I don't think I follow
Brandon: Argh I am just overthinking never mind me
Monica: Oh okay, enjoy the rest of your day
Brandon: (I feel like I am being replaced, someone is taking her attention.) I love you
She blue ticked me and logged out. I took my headsets and insert them as I went out to the shop. I dragged myself as I had our memories playing inside my head like an old video clip, it was a long journey as I came across our endless spots. On days like this, we were supposed to be seated on the rock all cozy with endless kisses. I took a picture of our spot and logged on my WhatsApp as I was about to share the picture with her I was taken by her uploaded status, I got angry, she uploaded her status while she just blue ticked me, she didn't reply to my text. Her status was " what do I do if I love you and want somebody else".
I sighed, I hope it's part of her silly post and none of the above is meant.
***Flashback***
Monica: Aaaaaaaah babe guess what?
Brandon: (She was screaming with excitement ) Wow babe what is it? you even making noise
Monica: I am accepted in Auditing and NSFAS just approved me
Brandon: Wow babe that's, that's really beautiful, I am happy for you
Monica: Thanks babe, so you still heard nothing?
Brandon: I am still waiting
Monica: Just give it some time, they will get back to you
Brandon: I have that hope
Monica: So what's left for me is registrations
***Two weeks later***
I just checked my status and it says I am rejected, I tried to convince my mother to at least give me money for registration but she said she has nothing I should just take a gap year. Well, the reason I am not a qualifier is that my fathers earn enough income and it sucks cause he is nowhere to be found. He left us when he says he is going to work he never returned. Its been 3 years now and he stopped sending us money. Mineworkers after being in so much struggle just after his luck he neglects us, the moment where we supposed to live normally just like the others, and then he decided to benefit another family cause it's obvious there is someone out there who is benefiting.
Brandon: I got rejected
Monica: I am so sorry babe
Brandon: It's okay I will survive, so when are you leaving?
Monica: Tomorrow classes will start on Monday
Brandon: I am going to miss you
Monica: I am going to miss you too but I will make it up to you, I will ensure to call you day and night, each time I get a chance you will hear from me, I will even go to the extent of coming home each and every weekend
Brandon: You promise me?
Monica: I promise and I promise to keep that promise
Brandon: Wow I love you Monica
Monica: And I love you too
I got closer as we shared our endless kisses.
***Back to reality***
I remember the day she left she was really excited. I would call her every time I get airtime, she would call me each and every single night sharing with me about her day, spending hours on a phone call. It never felt like this, in fact, it gave me hope on our relationship that it can still survive with this long distance. I was brought back from my thoughts when I heard someone calling my name.
Clara: Brandon!! Brandon, you dropped your money
Brandon: ( I searched my pockets, I couldn't find my R10 and she was holding it) Wow thanks, leaking pockets
Clara: Just be glad that I am the one who saw it or else you would've lost it
Brandon: Thanks for your kindness
Clara: My pleasure
Brandon: (After taking the money out of her hands I stare at her, she gave me a beautiful innocent faint smile, she is beautiful) you going to the shop?
Clara: No but I can accompany you to the shop, I don't mind at all
Brandon: Be my guest( I said that smiling)
