"Baby hold to mommy very tight please baby"kanina paako iyak ng iyak dito sa sasakyan ng aking kaibigan.
"Hestia please don't cry baka maapektohan ang bata" Robert my friend said.
Please make it to the hospital fast. I can't afford to lose another baby. I Lord please not again please! Lord please help me this time please! natawag ko na yata lahat ng Santo kakaiyak at dasal ang takbo ng sasakyan.
It hurts so much being in this situation again. Nanlalabo na ang aking paningin. Talokap ng aking mata ay unti unti ng sumasara. Napansin ito ni Robert kaya mas binilisan niya pa.
"Please hold it tight we are very near to the hospital" I nooded.
I slowly opened my eyes I only see white paint in the ceiling. Then pumikit ako uli at inaalala ang nangyari. Kahit masakit pa ang aking katawan ay agad akong napabangon.
Walang tao noong una ngunit segundo lamang ang lumipas ay dumaging si Robert kasama ang doctor. I suddenly got nervous seeing Robert reaction I know that their is something wrong.
"How are you feeling?" he ask. Tumulo ang aking luha.
"How's the baby? Is the baby ok tell me? Doc. can you tell me is my baby okay? I frustratedly ask the doctor.
"Yes. the baby is fine but?"
"But? What doc is there something wrong?"
Maselan ang pagbubuntis mo Mrs. sinabi ko na sa Mr. mo kanina."alam ko kung sino ang tinutukoy nito ngunit hindi naako umapila sapagkat hindi na ito importante sa ngayon.
"My only advice is don't stress yourself to much. Kung kailangang lumayo sa tao o lugar na makakapag stress sa iyo. I already gave your husband the vitamins you will intake. One more thing eat healthy foods as much as possible eat only fruits and vegetables. I will go now by the way you can already go home tomorrow."
Hindi naako umiyak ng araw na iyon I want my baby to be healthy. If it means leaving my husband. Napagusapan na namin ni Robert kanina ang plano ko he doesn't agree at first but I convinced him kaya ayon at pumayag kahit labag daw sa loob niya.
I will be leaving in Siargao. Robert want me out of the country but I don't really like the idea. He said if I will be outside the country my husband won't find me but I know he knows that my husband is capable of finding me even abroad.
My husband is known to be one of the bachelor's in the society. But no. He isn't a bachelor's anymore. 5 years ago we marry each other but still he is known for being one.
Our marriage is a secret. The person knows my family,his family,our trusted kasambahay and his friends.
Our may is a mess. And I'm a mess. His friends doesn't even like me. His parents like me for him. Specially his mother. His mother treated me like I'm her real daughter.
Nagising ako na sumasakit ang aking ulo at nasusuka agad akong pumunta ng banyo at doon sumuka ako g sumuka lahat siguro ng nakain ko ay naisuka ko lahat.
"Are you okay?"he looked at me with his worried face. I only smile and gave him a nod for an answer. Tinignan ko ang repleksyon ko sa, sa salamin.
Namumutla ako and I'm now white as paper dahil siguro sa pamumutla. I turned to him na sa pinto pa rin siya ng banyo. Alam kong nag aalala pa ito but I gave him an assuring smile to prove that I'm really okay.
"If only I can take all the pain that you're feeling." he smile pero hindi ito umabot sa tainga kaya alam kong hindi talaga siya masaya."If only you can love me back I'm the happiest living on earth pananagutan ko kayo ng bata magiging ama ako pero kahit anong pilot ko alam kong hindi ka papayag."
"If only I can why not? I smile. You know I tried." unti unti kong hinawakan ang kanyang mukha at agad ding nakatakas ang taksil kong luha.
"It is because you didn't tried hard."
"Haha I know right" tumawa ako para naakong nababaliw sa sitwasyon ko. "If only I can dictate my heart but my heart is a traitor everytime I think about you and imagine myself living with you,falling inlove with you and imagine myself in your arms. My heart always in pain. My heart always beat his name like ito lang talaga ang sinisigaw nito. You know. My heart is not with me Robert my heart is owned by the devil."
3years naakong nakatira dito sa Siargao.I love being here. I am here in the cloud 9. I learn surfing 2 years ago and this one of my favorite hobby.
"Ang galing ah!" one of my girl friend say. Maira is nice to me. She is the person who teaches me surfing.She is pretty,tall,sexy and morena na bagay naman sa kanya.
"Thank you" papaalis na sana ako ng may humila saakin. Ano ba! ng hihila na lang to bigla" hindi ko nakita kong sino ang humila sapagkat bigla na lamang ako nasobsob sa malapad nitong dibdib.Hindi nagsalita ang estranghero kaya agad akong lumayo at tinignan ito.
My eyes wide,my lips parted and I can't hide my shock reaction. Kung may nakakita sa reaction ko at close kami sigurado akong pagtatawan ako nito.
"Let's talk." Emerald said then walk away. Hindi ako sumunod dahil gulat parin ako. "Follow me" doon lang ako natauhan at para akong tutang nakasunod sa kanya.
Pumasok siya sa sasakyan. Hindi ako sumunod nagdasalawang isip ako.
"Come here" aniya sa matigas na bigkas parang galit o baka naman guni guni ko lang pero sa tagal kong pagkakilala sa kanya alam ko kong kailan ito galit at alam kong galit ito ngayon.
"Where is your place?lend me the way"kong makikipagbalik ito saakin tatangapin ko ito ng walang pag aalinlangan alam ko iyon ramdam ko.
Marami akong tanong saaking utak sa ngayon. Ang salitang bakit?bakit?bakit?
BINABASA MO ANG
Hopeless
Lãng mạnHesta Vesta fell in love to a guy in the age of fourteen. She is broken her husband love somebody else. She is hurt and in so much pain. But she never thought about gaving up One day her husband found her. But Hestia learned.
