(Tom's POV)
It's been three hours since I came out to the guys as gay, they all seemed to take it well except for Smarty, I mean he said he was okay with it but, he's been avoiding me, which is almost impossible because we are sharing a room together for PAX but he went to Galm's room and hasn't been back and when I asked him if he wanted to go get ice cream with me, which is his favorite frozen snack, he said no but then when I left I see him there with Ze and Chilled. I walk in and order what I want then I go over to him and tap his shoulder he turns around and looks down.
"Oh Tom.. Hey.." He says rubbing the back of his neck.
"Why are you avoiding me?" I ask.
"Avoiding you?! What? I'm not doing that.." He says.
"I asked you if you wanted to come here, you said you weren't in the mood and now you're here with Chilled and Ze.." I say and he looks guilty.
"Why don't we sit down.." Chilled says trying to drag us to a table. Smarty wont look at me. Our ice cream comes moments later and we start eating and talking.
"So Tom.. Do you like someone?" Ze asks, I go a bit red.
"No.." I say quickly.
"No?" Chilled asks.
"I-I mean there is this one guy but.. I doubt he likes me.. He's straight anyways.." I say.
"Oh I'm sorry man.." Chilled says.
"It's okay.. I'll find someone.." I say.
"I know you will!" Ze says.
"We're going to the club tonight.. You might find someone there.." Chilled smiles. I nod and smile then I look over at Smarty, he's playing with his ice cream.
"I have a question that will make me feel a lot better if answered correctly.." He says suddenly.
"What?" I ask.
"You are not, in anyway, attracted to any of us right?" He asks, which kinda breaks my heart. Oh you'll know why soon enough. Sorry breaking the 4th wall.. That will happen sometimes.. Anyways!
"What?! No I'm not attracted to any of you.." I lie. Yes I just lied. Wanna know why? Cause I love Smarty.. Yes I am in love with this idot who is avoiding me and it's breaking me each time I realize it.
"Ok.. I'm sorry for avoiding you.. I just.. I thought maybe you were telling us, because you liked one of us.. And I'm sorry.." He says. That's exactly why I told you guys!
"No.. I understand.. It just made me upset, because we're friends.. And I didn't want it to change us." I say.
"Alright!" He says and wraps his arm around my shoulders. Why?! Why do you do this to me? Oh he smells amazing..
"But if I did?" I ask.
"What?" He asks.
"If I did like one of you.. Would it matter?" I ask.
"Well.. Uhm.." He starts.
"If you liked one of us, I wouldn't care.. If it was me.. I would apologize for not liking you back but I would hope we could still be friends.." Chilled says.
"I'd be flattered.." Ze says.
"Smarty?" I ask.
"I have to go.." He says and I get up to let him out and he runs off, I sit back down and put my head down.
"Why did I decide to come out?!" I growl at myself forgetting Chilled and Ze are still there.
"Tom it's good you came out.. It means you trust us enough to let us know.." Chilled says.
"The only reason I came out is because I was hoping the person I loved would realize they loved me back but I was wrong.. I was so wrong!" I say not realizing I'm spilling my heart out to them.
"Wait.. You were hoping one of us liked you?" Ze asks.
"Yes.. I was hoping he'd like me back.. But I fucked up.. I shouldn't have done this.. I shouldn't have come here.. I should have left him alone, I should have let him avoid me.." I say. Hey stupid.. You're spilling your heart out.. They probably just figured out you like Smarty you fuck.
"You like Smarty?!" Chilled asks. Dang it.. Why did I open my mouth?!
"Don't tell him!" I say looking up at them.
"I ship it!" Ze says happily.
"At least someone does.." I say. I bet a lot of you actually ship us, but I know he doesn't. He never will.
"I'm getting drunk tonight.. Don't try to stop me, I need to push away the pain.." I say, they nod.
"Well let's go get ready for the club tonight.." They say, we finish our ice cream and leave, I go to my room to find Smarty getting ready for tonight, I grab some clothes and head to the bathroom. Once I'm done we meet up with the others and we head out. Well this is going to be fun.. What do you think is gonna happen? I hope I don't get too drunk and bring a random guy back to the hotel and have drunk sex.. That would be bad.. Unless it ended up being Smarty but I know that's not gonna happen.. You all wish it would but it wont..
So that's the first chapter of this story.. And I'm trying out a new thing, I like breaking the 4th wall so I'm trying this out.. Tell me if you like it!
Love You!
