He is sitting on the other side of the church but I clearly see how handsome he is. His pointed nose and beautiful eyes are reminding how I am deeply into him, secretly.
I don't know when the exact moment this feelings I have for him started, all I know is I've love him for 2 years now.
We are former classmates from grade school to high school, but I never noticed him. Like never.Ever. Many of my classmates and schoolmates are having crush on him because of his handsome look-that's what they always say. I'm not sure with that. I don't find him attractive, that time. And I am so mad at him whenever he teased me during our class time. And maybe, that is because, I am very head over heels with Frank. He may not have the beautiful face in our school or our class, but the way he put efforts in every thing he do makes him one. And yes, there are also so many girls who have crush on me, that time. I think, I considered him as first love because he is my first heartbreak. Even though, it's unrequited love. He knew my feelings but I guess it's just that he really didn't like me the way I like him.
After the graduation in high school. Most of my classmates enrolled in different Universities. Frank enrolled in a one of the known State Universities in Manila. And so my friends did. While me, I enrolled in one and only University near our hometown-Valenzuela. My parents never allow me to enroll in any Universities around Manila because they believed I can't stand on my own yet. I am too young to commute, that's they said. At first, I am sad about that because I will be seperated with my friends but later... I realized, that it is also fine. I become happy with the friends I've had in my college days.
During our college days, I am still in touch with my friends and classmates in high school. Thank you for messenger and group chat that's been created through hi-tech gadgets. We usually have a get-together whenever one of us celebrating our birthdays. And that's the moment I started to noticed him. Siguro nung umpisa, di ko lang napapansin or ayaw kong pansinin pero I started to admire him. From bad boy to really a full grown man. Hindi ko napapansin na gwapo siya nung magkakaklase kami, pero ngayon, sobrang gwapo niya. Naging talk of the town din siya sa University namin kahit hindi kami magka-course at magka-department. Napapailing at natatawa na lang ako kapag naririnig kong pinaguusapan siya. Dahil, kilala ko ang ugali niya. Ganoon pa din ang mga naririnig ko sa kanya- papalit-palit. Well, that's his nature bata palang. Hindi na ako nagtaka. Pero ayun na nga, naging crush ko siya kasi nakita ko ang full growth niya. Kahit hindi bilang isang ideal boyfriend. Bilang isang ideal person. Nakikipag-socialize na siya sa amin tapos ang gwapo pa! Nakakainis! Mali ito! Hindi pwede!! Ayokong mapabilang sa mga babaeng patay na patay sa kanya. Hay! Buhay!
Balak ko sanang itago ang sikretong ito hanggang sa mamatay ako. Ang kaso, one time... pumunta ang mga kaibigan ko sa bahay. Pumasok sa kwarto at nakita ang pinakatatago kong diary!! At ayun, alam na nga nila. Pinagtawanan nila ako. Alam kasi nilang kahit sobrang madami akong crush, wala sa ideal guy ko ang lalaking iyon.
Pero sinabi ko, "E anong gagawin natin. Ayan na nga! Ayoko nga din maramandaman 'to!" tapos ay nagbuntong hininga ako.
"Hay! Ganyan talaga ang love. Unexpected time minsan, minsan unexpected person", at nagtawanan na nga kami.
"Hoy! magsisismula na yung misa maya-maya. Sa altar ang tingin, wag sa kanya." Remind sa akin ng kaibigan kong buang na si Ruth.
Umayos na nga ako ng upo at tumingin na sa harapan ng altar ng simbahan. Apat kaming madalas magsimba, ako, si Ruth, Cole, at si Eve short for Evangeline. Every sunday at exactly 5 o'clock in the afternoon, together with my friends we regularly attend a mass. Nakasanayan na nga namin. Noong una, naaya ko lang. Then, later, ayun, magkakasama na nga kami. At halos sa isang taon wala kaming pinapalampas na misa. Ilang taon na din naming itong ginagawa, at sobrang saya namin.
Lalong nadagdagan ang kasiyahan ko dahil nakikita ko din ng madalas si Dake. Yes, he is the one that I've been staring for the long time before the mass started. He greeted us, but he stays on the usual seat we always saw him-which is as I mentioned, on the other side of the church.
(For you to imagine here is the illustration, Him left side-CENTER-Us right side)
After mass, he went on us saying goodbye and boom, he is gone. AW.
"Uy, bat di ka nagpaalam kay Dake? Yesss!!", that's Cole he is a gay and we love him so much, pero minsan mapangasar like this moment.
Natawa lang ako, "luh! Parang tanga!" At pati si Ruth and Eve inasar na din ako.
Habang naglalakad palabas ng simbahan, I saw someone, again. Si Kyle! Yung crush kong sakristan. OMG!!! Ang saya-say- Kaso, kasama pala ang GIRLFRIEND!
Si Kyle naman ay isa sa mga dahilan dati, kung bakit love na love ko ang magsimba every sunday.Isa kasi siya sa mga sakrsitan na madalas na nag-seserved sa time ng mass na dinadaluhan namin. 2 strike kaya, nakapagdasal na ako kay Lord, nakita ko pa si crush. Ang saya-saya! Cute din yang si Kyle. Kaso, parehas din yan ni Frank and Dake mahilig sa maganda. Hay!
Bakit ba ang hilig ko sa mga ganoong tipo ng lalaki? Bakit ba ang hilig sa mga magaganda ng mga lalaki????
Paano na kaming mga di masyadong kagandahan? Tatanda na lang dalaga?!!!!
"Hala! Si Kyle yun di ba? Ang kaso, kasama gf!", at ayan na naman po pala ang aking mga butihing mga kaibigan.
Ganda ng gf ni Kyle. How I wish bilugan din yung face ko and maliit. Kaso hindi. Ang haba! Kaya alam kong never talaga akong magugustuhan niyang si Kyle. Lalo naman si Dake.
"Okay lang yan. Madami ka namang crushes. Dahil kahit saan nagkaka-crush ka. Kaya, okay lang yan." Si Eve, habang tumatawa.
Tumawa na din yun dalawa ko pang butihing kaibigan.
"Sige, asarin niyo ko. Pag nakita din natin mga crush niyo, asarin ko din kayo!" Ganti ko sa kanila sabay ikot ng mata.
Well, honestly. What they said is true. Oo, madami akong crushes.
Nagkacrush ako sa school, simbahan, at kung saang lugar na madalas akong mapadpad. Maybe, part ng sistema ko. Siguro yun ang way ko to survive in a world full of couples and lovers out there. Joke.
Madami akong tinatawag na happy crushes. Yun yung tipong naging crush ko lang kasi madalas ko makita tapos ayun, crush ko sila kapag nakikita ko. May crush naman ako na plain crush, yung tipong hindi ko madalas makita pero crush ko pa din sila. And lastly, hindi na crush... gusto ko na. Gustong-gusto ko na siya. Yung papunta na sa love or minsan love na nga, yan ay nagiisa lang. That level is belong to him- Dake.
At sinong babae ang ganito kabalik sa crushes na iyan. Yup, I am that girl. Zoey Andrei Tan Maurico.
*NOW PLAYING: ME!
I promise that you'll never find another like meI know that I'm a handful, baby, uh
I know I never think before I jump
And you're the kind of guy the ladies want
(And there's a lot of cool chicks out there)
I know that I went psycho on the phone
I never leave well enough alone
And trouble's gonna follow where I go
(And there's a lot of cool chicks out there)But one of these things is not like the others
Like a rainbow with all of the colors
Baby doll, when it comes to a lover
I promise that you'll never find another likeMe-e-e, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
I'm the only one of me
Baby, that's the fun of me
Eeh-eeh-eeh, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
You're the only one of you
Baby, that's the fun of you
And I promise that nobody's gonna love you like me-e-eI know I tend to make it...
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Romance"Loving someone so much makes you the person you never expect to be." Zoey is a happy-go-lucky girl who never get tired of having unrequited love to anyone. But, what if? One day, there's a life changing happen to her oh-so-called unrequit...
