Disclaimer~ I know he passed but I enjoy writing about him so if you're uncomfortable skip also there is a suicide attempt so skip if you want😬
Jahseh P.O.V
"I SAID IM SORRY HOW MANY TIMES ALL WE DO IS BREAK UP AND GET BACK TOGETHER THAT SHITS NOT GOOD FOR MY HEALTH IT'S LIKE IM TRYNA HEAL THEN YOU COME ALONG AND BREAK ME AGAIN I KNOW IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH MAYBE ILL NEVER BE" I yelled at my girlfriend of 5 years she started crying and telling me she never intended to push me away or make me feel broken
" I love you just don't leave me😭 you're all I got please please please don't do this" she said wailing I put her on mute "FUCK" I yelled I never want her to feel like this but we just need a little break we're to much for each other she hung up "NO" I yelled my mom came upstairs "boy what's your problem you've been up here yelling for god knows what"
she said "ma I messed up" I told her "what you mean" she said confused "i-i got to go" I told her in a panic rushing to get over to kianna's house "Jah what's going on" she said worried following me down the stairs I ran to my car unlocked the door and sped off
Kianna's P.O.V
I hung up on him because he just sat there and let me pour my heart out just to get put on mute he got sum nerve I got out the bed only in a big t-shirt and panties went to the bathroom and ran cold water left out the bathroom went to my draw and started looking for my blade "where is it" I said tryna keep myself from panicking I didn't stop looking till I found one I went back in the bathroom stopped the water looked in my medicine cabinet found my pills for my sleep terror pop the cap off and took 5 and started cutting till I got dizzy I fell in the bathtub of cold water and started drowning slowly little by little my breath was slimming
Jah bust in my room and say the bathroom door open and my bleeding arm hanging out the tub spilling on the floor he rushed to my BAE❗❗❗ NO NO NO I had turned blue dying more and more he pulled me out the tub onto his lap trying to revive me he started calling the ambulance "911 what's your emer- PLEASE HELP MY GIRLFRIEND TRIED TO KILL HERSELF - sir calm down what is your address 8512 Easton Blvd HURRY UP HER PULSE SLOWING DOWN - sir did she take any-PILLS FOR SLEEP TERROR" he said looking at the bottle
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Ambulance are rushing putting me on a stretcher taking me out not letting Jah ride in the van I'm rushed to the hospital they instantly get to working on me Cleo and my mom and family come rushing in everybody just started talking at once asking what happen etc etc "CAN YALL STOP" Jah yelled everyone got quiet "WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER , MY BABY😭😭😭 my mom yelled trying to launch at him but my cousin held her back hugging her tryna calm here down the doctor came up to us family of Ms. Jay my mom said yes "she's stable we're working on her talking again um can I talk with the mother of ms.- right here" my mom said and her and him walked away "ma'am I think it's best if our patient is sentence to therapy" the doctor said "what no" she said quick "ma'am with all do respect she's under suicide watch until further notice and she won't talk to any one she will on give looks" he said "she tried to do what" she nearly yelled she walked over to Jah "this is all your fault your never allowed to see my daughter again you understand" she said with anger all he could do was look with so much hurt "would you like to see her" the doctor cut in she told my family to wait for her I was sitting in the hospital bed looking at the tv
Kianna's P.O.V
I'm not myself just like I expected I'm NUMB I haven't talked to anyone since I've been recietated and I don't plan on to the doctors were trying to get me to talk but we came to a conclusion I would hold up my fingers for anything they asked
1 no
2 yes
3 good
4. Feeling pain
5. Bathroom
My mom came in the room hugging me and saying she was sorry and then she said I FORBID you to see jahseh he has put you through to much I finally got the courage to talk, " ma my love live belongs to me not us pointing to me and her , I'm going to love him regardless of what you say I make my own dec- NOT WHEN IT COMES TO YOUR LIFE THAT'S WHERE I STEP IN I DON'T WANT YOU TO SEE HIM ANYMORE AND AFTER YOUR RELEASED YOUR COMING BACK HOME ITS NOT UP FOR DISCUSSION" i got quiet trying not to cry she noticed "I'm sorry I just don't want you do this anymore I've gone through to much for you to just give up like this" I just looked down I'mma see you tomorrow she said walking over kissing my forehead and she left a couple minutes later I thought she came back to get something but it was Jah
"Hey" he said awkwardly I just looked at him layed down and turn over facing the tv "even if you don't forgive just know I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart and I know I might have fucked up the best thing i had but I just want you to know I love you so much and I don't see myself with anyone but you , I know I done did some fucked up shit to you n I'll never forgive myself but I'll leave you alone if that's what you want 😩💔" I turned around and look at him " "i forgive but it's best if we depart from each other we're to TOXIC👉👈 all we do is hurt each other I don't think we were ready for a relationship" I understand he said walked over n gave me one last kiss it was slow,passion & rough just how I liked it😣 I'm gonna miss him so much
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