In To Deep

In Too Deep (7)

When the palm of my two hands, hold each other
That feels different
From when your hands are in mine
That's just the way it is, hmmm
And when my voice is screaming out, to my own ears, uh
That feels different
From when I hear yours
Now that's just the way it is
And when I'm standing in this mirror
After all these years
What I'm viewing is a little different
From what your eyes show ya
I guess I didn't see myself before ya
Moving forward

( Meriah in MM )

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= = Melanie = =

Its been almost a week since I've told Cornell about the baby. He's been calling and I only answered once which was a couple hours ago and I agreed to meet up with him at my house to talk about it.

The girls are at Chresanto's house so I'm home alone. I'm dressed in my Angry bird pajama pants and white tank top with my black and white striped fuzzy socks. I had my hair in a ponytail and am currently on the couch watching Doc Mcstuffins since nothing else was on.

This pregnancy is really tiering , all I do is sleep. I'm barely at work now and I barely go anywhere. I didn't go through this much this early when I was pregnant with the girls. I got off the couch and walked to the kitchen and grabbed me 2 caprisuns out the refrigerator and walked back to the couch.

Ding Dong

I signed as I got up sipping my first Capri sun and opened the door and Cornell stood there with his arms over his chest. I moved the straw out my mouth and sighed while walking back to the couch hearing the door close and lock.

He walked in and sat next to me on the couch and just looked at the TV. I sat there patiently waiting on him to speak while sipping my Capri Sun enjoying my cartoons. He started burning a hole in the side of my face. I sighed and rolled my eyes while removing the Capri Sun straw out my mouth.

" Its not polite to stare. I always tell you that " I said still not looking at him.

" Are you ready to talk " He asked.

I nodded my head whike sighing and sitting back as I started sipping on my Capri Sun again.

" How are you feeling " He asked turning to me.

" Tired " I said turning off the TV.

" So what do you want to do about this " He asked looking me in my eyes.

" What do you mean " I asked looking back in his eyes and mugging at the same time.

" Do you want to keep it " He asked me not breaking eye contact.

" Why would you ask me a dumb ass question like that " I snapped at him

" I was just asking Mel. I'm 40 years old I don't need nomore babies. " He said rubbing his face.

" Okay Cornell , you know I raised 2girls by myself without anyone. So I can do it with 3. " I said rolling my eyes at his remark.

" Melanie its not the Time to start being independent. Alright we still have stuff to talk about. " He said grabbing my hand.

" Ms. Jackson wouldn't like that " I said moving my hand from his.

" Melanie, she has a man ! I know what you saw and your eyes didn't fool you but it won't be happening again " He said.

I just looked at him because something in me could not get happy.

" Mel I want to be in my kids life ! " He said.

" And you can. That doesn't mean you have to be in mines. You know I have really good friends and I know you and Shantel are more than what your telling me. Before you met me you and Shantel were something. So my intentions were wrong , I thought she was the side bitch , but I was all along. " I said as a tear fell again.

" Melanie I- " He started to say.

" Please just get out " I said getting off the couch and walking to the door.

I opened it and he walked over and looked at me holding onto the door.

" I am sorry Mel " He said moving in for a kiss.

I moved my head to the side making him kiss the air and guided him outside.

" I'll call you " I said before closing and locking the door.

I really don't even know if I want to keep this baby. !

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= = Chresanto = =

After last weekend, I can't look at Keisha. We fucked the other day and I accidently said Melanie's name. I don't think she caught on but I started to realize things.

I almost kissed Melanie and I'm Engaged. I don't know if it's love or lust with either. I think the lust is with Keisha and the Love is with Melanie. Or it could be the other way around.

I've been lost all week and in deep thoughts. Keisha is picking up on the fact that I'm distancing myself away from her , but I'm not doing it on purpose.

Melanie is just on my mind. When she dropped the girls off I saw her eyes poofy and red and so was her nose. I confided her once again and this time I did kiss her but only a peck before she pulled away and left out the house.

Melanie knows she still has love for me like I have love for her. She just doesn't want to go through all the hurt and pain I caused her a couple months back at Mah'Lanahs graduation party.

I made her feel like everything was back to normal and it wasn't. I honestly don't know how all this came about. Keisha and Kayla just came in my life and shit changed. Everything happens for a reason.

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Feedback.

Nelly & Ms.Jackson ??

Chresanto & Melanie ??

Melanie & Nelly ??

Keisha & Chresanto ??

Drama Drama Drama

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