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y/n's pov

for the past few years, i have been living with my boyfriend of 5 years, and we even have a child together. yes, a child may not be very good for a college student and a singer who tours a lot, but now that quarantine started, me and corbyn have been able to spend more time with matthew, our 4 year old son. corbyn's band went on a social media break, therefore he has more time with matthew. but in a few days, i have to turn in my final thesis statement, and i have been working on my essay for a good two weeks. this is 40 percent of my science grade and it is so important.

corbyn is in the studio and will be back in 30 minutes, so to pass time, i logged onto netflix kids so i could watch paw patrol with matthew. there were a few tabs open, like my essay, some websites and netflix, because those were the most important tabs in my laptop. i havent spent a lot of time with matthew, so i wanna make up for that.
"what episode do you want to watch baby?"
"u-ummm this one!" he pointed to an episode and i pressed play.
a few minutes into the show, i needed to go to the bathroom.
"keep watching okay? i just need to go to the bathroom"
"okay mommy" i got up and did my business, changed my pad, washed my hands and went back into the room.

when i got into the room and on the bed, i saw that the show wasn't full screen and all the tabs were gone except netflix. i was so worried and nervous please please please don't tell me he deleted my fucking essay.
"um matthew did you touch the computer while mommy was gone?"
"yes, i deleted the extra tabs because you always do that to make the wifi as fast as flash!"
"nononononono" i paused the episode and started tearing up, logging into my google drive, seeing that my essay was erased and gone. it wasn't in the recently deleted file, it wasn't in the trash, i even looked in finder for the file. gone. my two weeks of hard work. gone.
"mommy why are you crying?"
"p-please go to your room matthew"
"w-why-"
"becAUSE I SAID SO" i snapped at my 4 year old son. fuck. i made everything worse. i make everything worse. why did i fucking snap at him? he didn't deserve that at all, and now he's running away to his room. why am i such a fuck up? i'm gonna fail college, gonna fail at being a mom, never gonna get a decent job, and i'm never gonna succeed in life. fuck here comes the panic attack. corbyn where are you? i need corbyn i need him i need him fuck deep breaths deep breathS IT ISN'T WORKING i'm calling corbyn.

corbyn's pov

i'm working on one lyric with daniel and jonah until i get a call from y/n.
"hey can i take this quickly?" i ask the boys.
"yea sure" i answered the call.
"hi love what's up?"
"c-corbyn can you come home p-please" she sounded like she was crying and/or hyperventilating. crap panic attack.
"leaving now, on my way home. stay on the phone princess and take deep slow breaths. in through your nose. out through your mouth" i got my jacket, worded the word "emergency" to the boys and they let me leave. i got into the bmw and rushed home.
"everything is gonna be alright okay? tell me about it when i get home. i'm five minutes away now"
"o-okay" she sobs.

i get into the house and i run into our shared bedroom.
"princessssss what's wrong huh?" i ask calmly while hugging er and rubbing her back.
"i feel like a failure. i snapped at matthew today for no absolute reason, it w-wasn't even his fault" she sobs into my jacket more.
"hey hey hey, everybody has those days okay? why did you snap at him? there's always a small reason"
"h-he deleted my final thesis statement that i have been working on for 2 w-weeks, and i can't find the f-f-f-file anywhere and i'm gonna fail college and i'm never gonna have a good job and i'm gonna end up in the streets"
"HEY. never ever in my life will i let you end up in the streets, and you are nothing but intelligent, beautiful and a great mother to our child. you just had one of those bad days today. right?" i rubbed her back as she calmed down and she nodded at me.

"alright, so let's go to matthew's room and talk to him okay?" i held out a hand for her to hold, and she took it so i lead us to matt's room. i opened the door to see a crying toddler on his bed.
"aww matt c'mere daddy's home" i hugged him as he went on my lap and hugged me as i rubbed his back.
"i want you to know that mommy did not mean to snap at you, she just put all her hard work into that big essay. she was very angry at the time, but i promise you she felt very bad for getting mad at you. mommy loves you very much, right?"
"i love you so much matt and i'm so sorry for yelling at you"
"i-im sorry too mommy, i love you and i didn't mean to delete it"
"i know you didn't baby" she hugged matt and i smiled because they were both better and the problem was solved.
"okay, now why don't we make some family chocolate chip cookies for dessert!"
"yea!!!!" matthews mood instantly changed and he was jumping up and down and y/n was smiling at the boy in front of us, while we were right behind him.
"i love you. so much." she said and i smiled.
"i love you too my princess" i kissed her lips sweetly and we baked our cookies.
"wait what about the essay-"
"don't worry about it, i'll help you okay? i'm a boss at science" she laughed and smiled at me. "what? it's true!"
"it is true corbyn, now come on time to make cookies!" now us three spent a lot of bonding time together, and we couldn't be happier.

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this seems short even tho it isn't ALSO RYAN IS SO ACTIVE OMG I LOVE HIM