[COMPLETE] Haikyuu: My Queen (Kageyama x Kuroo x OC x Oikawa)

AUTHOR'S NOTE

So.... uhhh.....

I have no idea how to begin this....

The manga of Haikyuu! just ended...

I decided to read this again and.... what the heck am I thinking when I was writing this!

Too many errors, nothing much about the anime/manga... and I just feel filthy reading this. Just...

I wrote this just out of the whim. I really didn't plan this. Mostly, I wasn't really expecting for this to have many reads and votes. I wrote this in my teens. And just looking back in some of the one-shots that I wrote back in High School is much better.

I want to rewrite this. But the problem is, I haven't have any motivation to write. Like, I am burned out in writing or making any fanfics.

I tried just making lengthy one-shots... but... I just can't. Maybe because I am not getting feedback. Or I just feel that what I am making is just... meh...

I am still having ideas. I have an idea for Devil May Cry and for DC's Young Justice. I have written ideas for DMC since the release of DMC5 last year, and for Young Justice was during the release of the new season.

I kind of realise that what I mostly write is BASED on the anime. I don't have much creative ideas... in terms... original ideas. Just ideas on what I can SQUEEZE into this scene/scenario. I tried writing with some prompts, but I always think that someone might have written or made something like this. How could I make this different?

To say... I am not proud with this. Like... literally. I cannot fathom why I still didn't delete this. I've been reading the comments about errors and stuff. I still appreciate some of the feedback that I still didn't change the errors.

I am going to be honest about this story. I wasn't really planning for Kuroo to show up. The ending... i really made a chapter for the poll that I decided to delete than turn to private before. My mind just went to 'Let's add Kuroo because we suddenly take an interest with him. OH! They like him! Make a poll then!'. The turn of events with Oikawa... I wanted drama. But, again, what the frick! I want wholesome content! Yet, what did I produce! Pervertedness! (Is that even a word?!)

I have made lengthy one-shots. I haven't published any new ones since 2018, I guess. And that is JJBA, that I was planning to make a spin-off with the game 'Eyes of Heaven'. Some FFXV one-shot of Gladio, Prompto and Ardyn. Speaking of Ardyn... I was also planning to make a story. But I can't understand the story relevance when his DLC was released. I also have a MCU Bucky Barnes one-shot that is on my notes. My friend liked it and yet, I didn't continue the one-shot because it is only based on Infinity War because I have no idea how to continue to Endgame.

I have a lot of stories that put in DISCONTINUE that I really want to continue. But, I got stressed. I got into college and mostly, fell out of the fandom. But reading some of the description, I really wanted to continue.

I felt, pressured... in a way. That... I wasn't sure... on what to do in my reality and to what I publish. Yeah... this sentence doesn't make sense. I guess, I wasn't really sure... with what I wrote... did people like it... because... I wrote some one-shots that didn't got that many reads and votes... that I think it was affecting me as a writer.

My friends told me, just write what I want to this story. But, I went on to a path that I thought what you might want to see.

So....

What am I going to do?

Am I going to rewrite this?

Maybe...

When will it be....

In the futute, I guess...

I really love the series of Haikyuu, even though I don't read the manga. I also got into the stage play.

A little story, I got a high-touch event with Oikawa's actor, Asuma Kousuke, last 2018... in the Philippines. Did I get to see him with Iwa-chan, Kohatsu Allen, last year, in 2019? I didn't...

Because, I am moved to a different country.

So, even if I have any intentions to make a story or... rewrite something... I can't. Besides the burned out part. I don't have a laptop.

Stuck in quarantine makes me want to write again. But... I can't buy one yet...

So.... all in all... with an additional apology with this lengthy post... I HOPE I CAN REWRITE THIS NEXT TIME! I WANT THIS TO BE BETTER IN A WAY THAT MY WRITING IS BETTER!

And, that's it...

Additional, I typed this with my phone. But I don't have plans to type a story with this because I have butter-fingers...