" Putangina!" napamura ako dahil sa frustrations, nasira lang naman ang upuang gagamitin ko sana para maikabit ang lubid na gagamitin ko sa kisame.
*KNOCK3X*
"Ate malelate nako!" sigaw ng kapatid ko.
Well, I guess hindi ko pa oras. Napakibit-balikat nalang ako at dali-daling nagbihis at nilinis ang crime scene sana.
"Coming bitch!" sigaw ko pabalik sa kapatid ko.
My sister's in elementary, 2nd grader while I'm in college taking up Bachelor of Science in Electrical Engineering. Malayo ang school ko so I have to really start my journey early plus the traffic that cause me about three hours to get in to the university. 'yong school naman ng sister ko is walking distance lang but she doesn't know how to cross the road so I have to drop her off and from her school sasakay ako ng jeepney papunta sa school ko.
"hey Cha, congrats dean's lister" bati sa akin ni Pamh, ngunit I just smiled and shrugged my shoulders. Hindi sa nagmamayabang ako but I'm kinda used to being a dean's lister.
"thank you Pamh, but I have to go may klase pa 'ko see you!" sabi ko nalang kahit 1 pm palang naman and I still have an hour before my class starts. I just don't wanna be with plastic people, I'm plastic myself, ayokong may mas hihigit pa sa akin, hahaha just kidding but seriously ayokong makipag plastikan. I can be plastic para lang I can hold back the words that I'm sure makakasakit sa kanila. My best friend used to call me 'no filter' cause I just don't know when to filter my mouth when I'm angry or annoyed.
Napadaan ako sa lobby ng school, sa dami ng estudyante I am somehow destined to notice a piece of bullshit, a piece of flyer na tinangay ng hangin sa pinaka-unang baiting ng hagdan.
"Suicide Hotline?" binasa ko ang nakasulat, kalakip nito ang address ng pupuntahan kung sakaling ineresado kami. Sa ibabang bahagi naman ay may nakasulat na *Plan your death with us* at sa likurang bahagi ay may mga instructions to follow, email at note.
It's kinda weird kasi sa skwelahan ko pa talaga ito makikita which promotes counseling and etc. to prevent this kind of things. Sa kabila ng pagtataka napangisi nlang ako at kahit may hesitations I managed to keep the piece of shit in my pocket. And with that, the bell rings hudyat na 5 mins. Before 2 pm na and I have to get going since yung classroom ko ay nasa 4th fucking floor pa, who knows kakanta na naman ako ng 'babablack sheep' for being late. Dali-dali akong nagtungo sa classroom and thank God I'm on time. 3 hrs. of boring class but I still managed to stay awake and sane tumunog na ang bell hudyat na tapos na ang klase ko sa araw na to.
"Cha, where to?" tanong ni Marie sa akin, she's my friend and we usually hang out every after class but I don't feel like going somewhere. I just shrugged my shoulders and gave her a flat look.
"let's go food trip! Jollibee? Mang Inasal?" pangungulit niya pa. Yes, we're fun of those food chains, you can't blame us.
"Alam mo Marie, aside sa mabubutas ang bulsa ko masisira pa ang diet ko, kaya we need to take a break muna okay?" I joked, patted her shoulder and went outside. Napangisi ako when I receive her complaints about how kill joy I am and how unfair 'cause hindi ko siya sasamahan.
Nagmamadali ako kasi kailangan ko pang makipag-agawan ng jeep, I take 3 jeepney rides everyday and hindi biro ang makipag-agawan. Habang naghihintay ng jeep I remembered the flyer, I dig it out of my pocket at binasa ulit.
Sa 'di malamang dahilan, I found myself fishing out my phone from my bag's side pocket and calling the number. But before I could utter a hello, the person on the other side say something that makes me really shocked.
" Good evening miss Alcover, we are really expecting a call from you but not this soon, however, we are glad that you consider asking for our services. An email will be sent to you any minute now. Thank you and have a nice day!"
What the hell? How did they even know my name? how did they even know my number or that I'm calling?
*BEEP*
NOTIFICATION:
You've received an email from Suicide Hotline
Dala ng pagtataka dali dali kong binuksan ang email at habang nagbababsa wala akong maintindihan kundi may pepermahan daw kaming terms and we have to go to the address that was attached in the email. Without second thoughts, nagtungo ako sa sinasabi ng sulat. Alam kong delikado but my guts is telling me I need to check it out, I just hope it's not some kind of a scam that leads me to being abducted soon. Yeah, I just do wanna die but I wanna die by my own plan.
In search for the address, dinala ako ng mga paa ko sa lumang eskinita. Eskinitang araw-araw kong nadadaanan pauwi, kahit creepy patuloy parin akong naglakad until I reached a new building. Kasalungat ng iniimagine ko, bago ang building, bagong pintura, bago lahat. Ito lang ang nag-iisang bagong gusaling nakatayo dito, ang iba parang guguho na, ang iba nama'y wala nang nagtatao, in short ito ang natatanging building na nag-ooperate dito.
I pushed the glass door, wala akong nakitang guard so I guess wala talaga silang guard dito.
Nagpaling-linga ako, hinahanap ng mga mata
ko ang receptionist. Ngunit laking gulat ko ng biglang may humawak sa balikat ko.
"Welcome Miss Alcover, sorry to keep you waiting and for startling you. We've all been waiting for you, please follow me." She said as she flashed her smile that shows her sparkling teeth. And again how the hell did she know me?
Ilang beses ba akong maguhulat sa araw na ito? Tsk anyway sumunod lang din ako sa kanya. Gaya ng isang batang parang ngayon lang nakapasok sa mall, inoonserbahan ko ang paligid, napalinga linga ako. And all I could say, plain, very plain.
White walls, white furniture, glass doors. Boring.
Marami pa kaming pasikot sikot na dinaanan at sumakay kami sa elevator na nasa pinakadulo pa. Wala naman kaming imikan. I just decided to ask questions, for a moment nalimutan ko kung bakit ako nandito.
" Miss " ano nga bang pangalan nito? Di man lang nag pakikala.
"You can call me Jen" she said and smiled.
" Jen, seryoso ba talaga to?" Tanong ko pa
" it depends kung gaano ka kaseryoso" she said and again flashed her smile.
