What's love?

Chapter 1: Toucher

Chapter 1: Toucher

Sometimes i wish my life could be different. Oh wait. I wish that every second of my life. Im Eva Hope, 16 year old girl. Yes i live in a care home, ive been moved from care home to care home most of my life none of them have ever worked out for me. All my life i have been bullied, touchered, abused and stuff that has been so frightening i was scared to leave my bedroom. Everyday of my life i have been bullied, by people in school, the kids in the care home and people on the streets that dont even know me. They would make fun off me, judge me everyday, take my money, steal from me, hide my stuff, get tripped up or even spat on.

My life is hell and there's nothing i can do to stop this.

I dont have any friends. I used to have one when i was 5 and i got scared i used to go to the back of the garden of my house i used to live in with my parents, i used to move a peace of wood and there was a boy who lived next door to me. This boy was my bestfriend i never found out his name, he used to speak to me and make me happy when im sad, until that dreaded shout of my dad.

My parents didnt want me mixing with any other kids. They got angry, really angry if i did. Thats why they wouldnt let me out the house i never understood why they wouldnt let me talk to anybody. I tried and tried running away but when i did they would find me...and hurt me until i bleed. This was my life. Everyday i would have one extra big black and blue bruise, i would have cuts all over my body from them. my Dad exspecially.

I tried running away once. This is what happened...

memory back when i was 5..

I krept downstairs as quietly and slowly as i could it was dark outside and my parents were asleep i had my blanket over my shoulder and my tatted teddy in the other. I walked to the back door and tried to unlock it, it was no use i tried shaking it but it wouldnt open i was panicking. I got the chair and climbed onto the kitchen top and opened the window. I through my teddy down and my blanket. I looked down thinking it was a big jump. I had to do it, this was my only way out. I jumped out and yelped my hand instantly hit my mouth as a sign to be quiet incase i wake my parents up.

I picked up my teddy and blanky and ran to the back of the garden where there was a gate door so i could get out to the woods. I heard someone. I instantly shot my head round.

"pss" i heard

"pss over here" i looked at the fence and it was the boy. I ran over to him and pulled the plank of wood over slightly.

"hi" i said quietly

"what are you doing?" he asked me

"Running away" i said

"Why do you want to run away?" he asked really sad

"Because im scared"

"What are you scared of? That dark? Monsters under your bed... it's ok im scared of them too" he asked in the little boy voice.

"my mummy and daddy, im scared"

"Why are you scared of your mummy and daddy?"

"They hurt me and make me sad"

"But my mummy and daddy dont hurt me they love me, does your mummy and daddy love you?" the little boy said confused ,

"no... what's love? They hurt me, really hurt me, im scared and need to run away" i checked around to see if anyone was there but nobody.

"My mummy told me one day i shall say it to a girl, why dont you tell someone" he said

"my daddy told me if i told anyone then i wouldn't be here anymore" i tear fell from my dark blue eyes. The boy moved his hand up and wiped the rolling tear.