I Hate You

10. This is rape.

" You monster !!!!!! Get off me. I'm not cheating on you dammit. Leave me alone ." I screamed hitting his chest with my bruised arms and tried my best to fight this person who was totally different from what I thought my husband was. This can't be the same person. The craziness in his eyes was scaring me and the twisted smile on his face was sending chills down my spine.
" Baby ,you're not supposed to call your husband a monster, especially the one who is fucking loving to you. So sweetie cut the shit and tell me what the hell were you doing with another man for these many hours if not sucking his cock." ,he hissed and gripped my neck hard enough to choke me. I was feeling suffocated. I couldn't believe that my husband, without any basis or evidence would doubt me for merely spending a few hours with my friend.
He even dared to physically abuse me and still has the audacity to question me for something I wouldn't even think of doing. In no way I'm answerable to him after all that torture he put me through . I never thought Mathew would stoop so low to the point of raising his hand on a woman and not just any woman but his wife. Hurt , angry and betrayed, I was furious at the man I believed was the love of my life.

" Mathew, you crossed all your limits. This is violence. I won't stay silent and take your beatings like a slave. I'll report you ,put you behind the bars and then get a divorce. I can't stay with you for another second of my life after what you did to me today. You don't have the right to treat me like this.I deserve better. I hate you. I hate you I hate you" . I yelled at him. Tears streamed down my eyes non stop and I was heartbroken to find myself in such a horrible situation. I never thought I'll be a victim of domestic abuse. When the person you love the most hurts you without a warning, you may not be able to withstand the blow. Tears kept pouring down my cheeks and I was breaking within.
" Not even one year into our marriage, you want divorce? Sweetheart is this because that Neil dude has it bigger than mine? I'm pretty sure I'm big myself , you know girls can't get enough of me but you, my wife is whoring around, when I could easily satisfy you. Why sweetheart? " He sarcastically chuckled and then his smile was gone the very next moment. He trailed his hand up my chest with a sinister smirk on his face and roughly squeezed my breast.
"Ahhhh...." I cried out in pain.
"You are Mine. Get that inside that thick head of yours." He said in a dangerously calm voice.
" No, never. I can't live the rest of my life with a tormentor like you.If you had ever loved me you wouldn't dare hurt me." I said with courage and authority. I won't comprise my safety and dignity just because I have or rather had feelings for him.
"Monster, Tormentor what more adjectives do you have for me? I'll just forget the fact that you spend some QUALITY time with your so called manwhore but next time I won't let it slide away nor would I be this lenient to you and tolerate your disrespect towards me." he said as if I had asked him for forgiveness and he was being considerate towards me.
" There's no next time between us. It's OVER. I want you out of my life. Your nothing but toxic." I seethed.
" So you don't understand words, how about I show you what I mean ,hmm? I'll just have to claim you again to prove my statement that you belong to me, and only me. " he hardened the grip on my arms and locked my legs with his big ones rendering me defenseless.
"Mathew No,this is rape. Don't touch me. You are out of your mind to think that I'll stick onto you after literally thrashing me for a mistake I never committed . Let me gooooo.... ", I was struggling and squirming under him but his heavy frame was too much for me to fight. A new set of tears marred my cheeks and I felt vulnerable just like a prey stuck with its predator.
" I love you my dear wife. What I'm about to do has nothing to do with rape. You can't call sex between a husband and wife rape. That's utter nonsense.But today since you've been a bad girl, you need to be punished. How about a rough night with me? Afterall girls love rough sex and I know you will love it too."

"Noooooo..noooo.....stop. Mathew I'll loose the last bit of respect I have for you if you dare touch me. Just back off and let me go for Christ sake. " I was fuming by now with rage and hatred for this person who couldn't even decipher the meaning of no.
"That's it bitch. I too lost the last bit of my patience handling your disobedient ass. Till now I tried my best to keep my cool but seems like you're feeling all hot, wet and needy for some quick action and that too by provoking me,a strategy you know very well will  get me into form. You could've simply asked ,why cause so much drama. "
God, is he insane. I'm not a masochist to feel that way.
"Bastard, stop acting dum-" Before I could finish, I was smacked on my face. He hit me again and again without any hesitation or regret.
" Baby do you by any chance have a death wish? Stay still or I'll make you bed ridden for atleast a week. You won't be able to walk after I'm done with you ,so honey be careful with your choice of words I may turn lethal for you. " he said leaning down to my face. He licked the blood from my lips and I cringed at the disgusting sight before me.
"M-Mathew please don't do this " I whimpered . I was helpless and a sobbing mess.
He captured my lips with his in a brutally passionate kiss and all my cries of protest were muffled with his moans of pleasure.
"Mathew I'll kill myself if you proceed any further".