Just My Diary

Wow.

Wow guys! Long time no speak 'ay? Well, nearly TWO WHOLE YEARS to be exact (ish). I'm 15 now. Nearly 16.

A lot has happened during that time. I've lost practically all of my friends, I've had multiple breakdowns in front of everyone I know and I've started the most horrid, time consuming, monsters to ever 'grace' this measly, little spec we live on... EXAMS. I know what you're thinking 'I bet they're not that bad. Stop over exaggerating.' No. Don't ever think like that. That's how I thought. Until it all started.

In theory, I've also had some quite cool, grown up things happen to me as well. I had my first kiss. Yes. It happened. I thought it would never happen to me. People never look at me let alone date me. But hey... I have my ways ;) Well, when I say 'ways' I actually mean avoiding them for the longest amount of time, then them finally cornering me in the playground, them grabbing my hand and asking if I'm okay and want to go out with them, me awkwardly nodding in an attempt to get them to leave then them walking over to everyone whilst holding my hand? I then went through the whole next two days worried about whether I was going to see them because I'm not very good with people and when I finally see them they just kiss me? I mean what the hell. But anyway, that's how my first kiss happened. Yay!

Then the horrid 'Falling out with my Friends because of Stupid Rumours' happened. I got accused of calling one of my best friends... Wait for it... DRUM ROLL PLEASE... A slut. I mean seriously? She's been in a relationship for over a year now I mean seriously? Only someone really dumb could of made that up. Oh wait? He did. (Plot twist: it was her boyfriend).

I also got accused of calling someone attention seeking? Okay. Oh, and here's the best one. I was apparently 'bullying someone online'? -_- Wot. It was apparent that I didn't like this girl and she didn't like me. So, one day, on some social networking site, she asked me (on private message) why I didn't like her. I obviously, as someone who says it as it is, proceeded to give her reasons why I didn't like her. Some of which were that she was stuck up and that she was acting kind of like a bitch towards her friends. She then proceeded to list reasons why she didn't like me which were that I was too fat and I thought I was amazing at singing (arrogant). I was like okay, whatever and we went our separate ways.

7 months later I get called into the deputy heads office and I'm shown these screenshots of the conversation I had with this girl 7 MONTHS ago and get told that I'm a horrible bully who will not go far in life because of my horrible ways.
I was then moved into the head teachers office who then started having ago at me and told me these words (and I quote) 'I don't care how you're feeling. You could be the most unhappy person ever who is ready to jump off a cliff as long as * is happy. No one cares'. At this point I was so angry. I was like 'excuse me?'
After this happened I then got given 2 days in isolation (kept in a room on my own with shit loads of work to do) and a rant from the schools community support officer about bullying and it's affects on young people. I was thinking fuck this. That stupid ass head teacher should be given this lecture for what he said to me.
Oh, and I also apparently set up a page where anyone could comment on this person? Wut.

So that's the story of how I got completely punished for something I technically didn't do.

The story of my past two years isn't all bad. I've been to see my favourite band at Wembley and I have tickets for this year to see them and their old support act too! Wahoo.

I've also got two, new amazing best friends!! I love them to pieces! I'll give you a description of both of them next time but for now their names are Jamelia (Jam) and Katherine (Kat).

Sorry this has mostly been a rant about my unfair punishment and the shit schooling system but it had to be said.

Speak soon. Bye people!!