Ruin Me || Jihan

Chapter 4

The whole ride for Jeonghan was like a torture. He just can't shrug it off of his mind or maybe he's just overthinking.

But wait, why's this even bothering me?

He has been unsure of what he's been feeling lately and it bothered him a lot as to why he's even feeling this in the first place? It wasn't just right.

But the more he shrug it off, the more he becomes restless about it. What frightens him is that maybe if he acknowledged what it is, then it might be the key to having a piece of mind.

Since when did it started? Shua is always Shua but why do i feel that he has changed? Or was it me who has changed to what i think of him as?

"What's with the long face Jeonghan?" Minghao noticed that Jeonghan's been not himself.

"I'm just tired." He forced his smile to assure Minghao that he's okay.

Before proceeding to get his make up done, he went to the bathroom first and regretted it immediately. Joshua was also there washing his face.

"Jeonghan, I have a plan. Look what i've found." Shua showed him a wallet while he's wiggling his eyebrows.

"Hmm?" Jeonghan's only reply showing the smallest interest of talking to him.

"Look, this is Mingyu's wallet. He has left it right here and what's more interesting is that he's planning to treat all of our staffs today." Excitement was really evident on shua's voice.

He carefully studied shua's face.

Do I really like him?

I want to get rid of that fucking smile. Ah, I want to punch him.

Shua then noticed Jeonghan's inattentiveness.

"Wait, are you sick?" Shua suddenly rested his palm on Jeonghan's forehead. His touch was menacing but at the same time it was also comforting.

He quickly removed Shua's hand and quickly went out of the bathroom. Shua then followed him and grabbed his elbow.

I want to get annoyed but...

"You seemed fine a while ago. what happened?" Shua asked him.

"I'm just tired and maybe hungry." Jeonghan smiled and it was a genuine one.

I just can't.

"I knew you'd say that. You're one of a lucky guy since i brought your favorite." Shua smiled and dragged Jeonghan back to their room.

Their photoshoot then started and it was Joshua who's been doing poses. He looked handsome and manly as always, wearing a suit that matches his features.

"Ah josh looks so handsome." Seokmin commented. They are on cam since it's for their inside seventeen.

"The is the epitome of manliness." Mingyu added and they all laughed while Jeonghan was spacing out.

Joshua then faced at Jeonghan's direction, eyes locked at each other while he poses for a fierce look. His eyes were piercing and at that point, Jeonghan felt that it has something to tell.

Jeonghan was startled when the camera was on his face already so he has to say something.

"Our Joshuji really likes to show off, eh?" while he pointed at Shua's direction.

The photoshoot ended right away. They spent their day doing all sorts of photoshoot and they were on their way to a restaurant since Mingyu wanted to treat their staffs.

"Jeonghan and I have plans." Shua asked permission to their manager but it sounded more like a demand.

They left first and were now headed to a cafe near where their photoshoot was held. They wore their hat and mask since they were trying to keep a low profile.

Shua was the one who ordered and Jeonghan who found them a comfortable place to sit. While Jeonghan was waiting, he felt really nervous and afraid. He was afraid of what Shua's gonna talk about.

It took only a minute for Shua to order and then he walked towards where they were seated. When Shua seated, he immediately opened the topic whilst looking nervous that his fingers were fidgeting.

Why would he feel nervous? Unless it is something serious?

"You know, It's okay if you aren't ready to talk about it yet." Jeonghan insisted.

Shua then took a deep breath and leant towards Jeonghan, closing their space.

"So there's this girl" Shua started.

And within that moment, Jeonghan knew that he wouldn't like it.