THE POWER INSIDE ME (One Short Story)

Chapter 3

after what happen yesterday, i can't stop thinking. how did that man know  what's on my mind? is he a something like me? or am i so easy to read?

 is he really my ally? or not? can i really trust him ba?  or this will be another trap for me?

arghh!  i'm still confuse about my decisions. i cant even decide whats better or not!  i hate my self!

i don't know what to believe anymore. maybe i should listen to him? but.... what if the situation get worse? how can i face it? can i really accept it? 

like duh.. i have been alone in my whole life. with no friends and family.. because i was avoiding the pain and the things that might happen. 

I also  sacrifice my own happiness to make sure that they will live safely. i even leave them to secure their safety and choose to live alone. 

maybe, yes. i have house hold workers, but i'm not that close to them. i also talked to them rarely. 

why? because i was not brave enough to face the consequence's. i know that they still have a family who is waiting for them to come home. 

sometimes i heard them saying that i was a spoiled brat, but i didn't gave an attention to it. i was controlling my anger, afraid for the things that i might done to them. 

knock. knock. knock.

"Maria? hija? ready na Lunch... gising ka na ba?" manang said while knocking on my door.. 

si Manang Claira lang ang laging nakapapasok sa kwarto ko, at nakaka usap sakin.... dahil shempre ayaw din ng  ibang kasambahay ang pag uugali ko. because you know i was snob and cold to them.  

Well, about Manang Claira...  we have been close before. but when i start seeing bad things, and her daughter start's to get mad at me? I immediately  distant my self to her. but still she stay at by my side. even i push her away in so many times.  

hindi ko siya sinagot at dire- diretso kong lumabas sa kwarto, nagulat nalang ako ng bigla niya hawakan ang pala pulsuhan ko!

inis ko siyang liningon pero di siya natinag. 

"sana bumalik ka na sa dati... anak na ang turing ko saiyo.." then there she is, she start crying in front of me. darn this. 

"why are you crying? Manang you know my situation right?" i said calmly 

" Yes i know... gusto ko lang sana mag paalam... if i can take a leave.. para  alagaan ang anak ko... she's in pain right now.." wait totoo ba to? why? i mean she's healthy when i saw her.

my heart broke's when she continuously cried so loud, that she can't even breath properly!

"Ma-manang don't cry i'll help you.. but please.. this will be the last one...because i don't want you to put in danger.." sambit ko sakanya, aissh i regret for what i said but i already said it na. 

as we reach at the parking of my house i  drove my black  E Coupe Mercedez Benz. 

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We finally arrived at their small house. As we leave the car,  i was very nervous to go inside of their house, afraid to witness another painful scenario. 

As we enter the house, we immediately enter the one room occupied by her daughter Leighla. 

nakita ng dalawa kong mata kung gaano na nang hihina si Leighla.. but still try to look at me, at my eye. dang! i was stun by that look. it seem's like she want to talk to me. 

is she gonna reveal something? or she want to tell me something important?

so i went closer to her 

"H-hey..." i said shyly 

"can i talk to you in private?" she said weakly 

"y-yeah sure" i said so manang, and her uncle leave us, so that we can talk.. 

"look.. i know i have been harsh to you years ago.. and also call you a witch.. i- i just want to say that i'm sorry for all the things that i have been said to you.." she said and started to cry... 

i don't know what to say! she have been also my friend before but also left and disgust me. well i can't blame her with that... 

"if you still cant forgive me it's ok  i know its hard for you to forgive someone like me... but... please... i don't wanna die" wait what? why is she saying that to me? 

"h-heal me.. Maria please..." pag mamakaawa niya pa

" look...im  not mad for what you've done years ago... i'm not mad at you though. but how can i heal you? i don't even know how. hindi ako ang may hawak ng buhay ng mga tao Leighla... i can't help you with that. i'm sorry."

i turn my back on her, when i supposed to leave her,  she held my wrist and begged me again.

"Yes you can..  i know you can... please... try it please... i believe in you.."