Dear diary.

Chapter 13: I fell into his tricks once more.

3 July 2020
Dear diary, 

Now I am beginning to hate the sound of the ringtone of messages. I decided to shut it off. Why? Think. Eric messaged, Austin messaged, who I did not reply to and accepted unwillingly respectively. 

Today, Haile wanted me to unblock him. Through text. What the hell is it with text and bad luck?！

He told me... He told me he was sorry. He told me he regretted it. He told me he wanted to be my friend. Last time when he spilled my secrets to the class as easy as spilling tea, he already lost his trust from me. Why should I trust him again? Part of me wanted to ignore him and treat him as a ghost. A non-existing stupid ghost.

But another part of me, A.k.a. the nice, caring part of me willed to give him another chance...I gave him so many, I didn't know if I should anymore. But anyways, We have to see what he say first, right?

I asked him for what should I trust him, for what should I be his friend and for what I should forgive him. He simply said that I did some bad things to him too. 

Why...why must men be so stupid and dumb, don't they get it? Don't they get females? Sure, I may have done "bad things", like taking away your stuff, but at least I stopped. He took away my stuff, but did he stop? Of course not. He smashed my phone until the screen protector was jagged. Did he pay for the screen protector fee? Of course not! Sure, I may have smashed your phone, but its just one small crack. Doesn't matter. My phone? The screen protector was falling out bit by bit, all sharp and pointy. Could have hurt someone. Did you care? Of course not!! So why should I care now? Give me a good reason.

My good side took over me and forgave him. Not that I fully did, its just that 40% of me forgave him. We are PROBABLY friends now, but I don't know. He's unpredictable, and Hades knows if he will trick me again.

For the rest of the time, we went to school together. I don't care if this time he is real about it or not- I can just dump him.

I was right. About a week later, he became a jerk. Said I was the worst. Immediately, I shut him out. As I'm a Leo, I cannot stand people who is not loyal. So, bye.

After that was exams. I never scored well anyways. Always average. No more than that and I never will. Yes, you might say I'm not confident. In fact, you are right. I'm not confident at all! I always see the worst in myself. I mean, its kind of true, right?

MY DEAR READERS GIVE ME SUGGESTIONS ON WHAT I SHOULD DO WITH THIS DUDE!!!!