Dear Diary

the present

One month time skip
Sans his POV

"Take one step closer and you're really are not gonna like what happens next. Do you really wanna have a bad time?"

As the kid takes another step towards me I sigh and prepare my attack for the far in the thousands time. Why can't they just stop and let us live. They've done pacifist before just to reset and start killing everyone again.
Heh I started with 20 HP but well after the next few hundred resets I kinda lost most of my HOPE and have a proud 1 now. Oh yes the kid, they try to pull a sneak attack but I just dodge like always.

Something doesn't add up, this isn't right.

We keep doing the dance of attacking and dodging but I feel myself growing tired at a quick pace. Soon I'll see you again Papyrus...

I feel the hot burn of the knife finnaly gliding along my chest and I give a tired grin.

"Hey Paps do you want anything from Grillby's?"

The world turns black right after I shortcut home from behind a pillar so the demon won't have the satisfaction of seeing me dusting or finding my dust.

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20 minutes ago
Blue's POV

I yawn as I wake up from movement beside me and Red's whisper yelling.

"C'mon sweetheart wake up! Yer not in the hall yer at home with me and Blue."

"What's going on?!"

"He's having a nightmare about Judgement Hall and can't wake up. C'mon Sansy! Please listen to me!"

I was about to start helping Red in waking Sans up but suddenly he shot up with one of his sockets empty and his other flashing a vivid cyan and yellow. But it's like he isn't here, his one eyelight is unfocused and he looks like he can't see us.

"Dammit! He doesn't know he's outta the nightmare."

"Sans love it's not real! You're in our bed with me and Red! You're not in the hall!"

He starts to mumble something about Grillby's with a tired smile and as he closes his eyes he shortcuts away!

"NO FUCK! WE GOTTA FIND HIM! We need to call Papyrus first!"

"I'll call him while we start searching! Let's go to his old house first."

Red grabs my hand to shortcut to Sans and Papyrus their old shared apartment and starts knocking

But nobody answered.

Finnaly Paps picks up his phone!

"PAPYRUS SANS HAD A NIGHTMARE AND WE COULDN'T GET HIM OUT! HE STARTED MUMBLING AND TELERPORTED AWAY! WE CAN'T FIND HIM!"

"What! Have you checked the appartment?!"

"WE ARE AT THE APPARTMENT HE'S NOT HERE!"

"Oh no! Uhm maybe call Grillby? Sans still doesn't like talking about what happened with me but Grillby knows a lot more from drunk nights!"

"WILL DO THANK YOU PAPYRUS!"

I hang up the call before he can reply and search Grillby's number. Shit I only have my own Grillby!

"DO YOU HAVE TALE GRILLBY HIS NUMBER?!"

"YES WAIT LET ME CALL HIM!"

Red hits the number and we both pray for the elemental to pick up.

"Hello? Grillby speaking."

Thank the stars!

"HI GRILLBY! DID SANS EVER MENTION TELEPORTING BECAUSE OFF OR DURING NIGHTMARES?!"

"I believe he did, oh no it happened again didn't it?"

"YES! DID HE TELL WHERE HE GOES? WE CAN'T FIND HIM!"

"He said he always goes to either his secret spot in Waterfall, I don't know where that is, or his house in the Underground."

"THANK YOU BUT WE NEED TO LEAVE TO GET HIM BECAUSE HE'S PROBABLY PANICKED AND DEFINITELY ALONE."

Red grabs my hand and shortcuts us to Sans his Snowdin.

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Half an hour ago
Sans his POV

NO. NO. NO.
IT CAN'T BE TRUE.
THEY DIDN'T RESET AGAIN.
I FINNALY FOUND MY SOULMATES.
I FINNALY FOUND PEOPLE THAT UNDERSTOOD.

I start sobbing my heart out in my knees, it won't be like anyone hears me. It ussually takes a bit longer for everyone to return.

OH GOD RED AND BLUE ARE PROBABLY BACK IN THEIR UNDERGROUNDS TOO!!!

My broken sobbing turns louder as everything keeps reminding me of my mates.
And how alone I am again.
And how low the chance is that I'll find them again.

"Thanks a lot kid, I finnaly gained a bit more happiness and even hope and you just had to ruin it didn't you."