You & I « Motough

Chapter 5

Wednesday:

           Tying the shoelaces to my sneakers, I stood up waiting for Derek to come up with what he wanted to do for our jazz dance this week, I could tell by the looks on his faces that he wasn't fully concentrated on coming up with a fascinating new dance. It was taking a massive toll on the both of us. But that wan't the only issue, Derek and I haven't talked in a personal level since Sunday and I was starting to get lonely, I wanted to be around him and be able to hug him again and hear my name come out his sweet mouth.

               God, I really can't handle being without him, he's gonna be my weakness for the longest time and their is no way I can be without him. I walked towards Derek slowly not wanting to interrupt his thinking process, My eyes trailer up his body slowly taking in all of his physical appearances, he was shirtless, in his jeans and black combat boots but damn he looked good. His abdomen was breath taking. Derek glanced over at me with dark, gloomy eyes they scared me because I don't know what were behind the.

               "Come here.." Derek mumbled towards me without fully meeting my eyes. I walked towards him slowly and stood besides him start from where we left off in our jazz routine. A couple of times Derek got upset with me and wanted to give up. He would take sharp breaths then tell me what I did wrong and we'd restart again.

                After the cameras had left, I sat down on the ground and picked up my phone reading a text message from Janel and I'm pretty sure Derek got the same one because he was looking up at me. I looked away and replied to Janel the stood up looking at Derek.

                "YOU!" I said to Derek startling him. "You always do this to me. You get me upset, make it a little worst then you ignore the issues by putting your walls up higher but I always come back like some stupid disease, you never know what you do wrong but I forgive you because I can't stay mad at you for too long. I tried so hard but I can't find the reason that I was mad at you anymore. Just please talk to me like I'm a human.." I started tearing up. "Treat me like I'm special and the way we were three days ago. Like you care and that.." I said with tears streaming down my face.

                 Derek stood up and walked towards me, wrapping his arm around my waist pulling me towards his body. His gripped tightened while I wrapped my own arm around his torso. The tears continued for a while but he him just being him, soothed them away. I leaned my head into his bare chest taking in a deep breath, he smelled amazing as usual. When we pulled away, Derek held onto my hands and just watched me.

               "I love you, Beth and I would never do anything to hurt you and I promise you that.." He whispered. "Do you want to go tonight?" He asked referring to the dinner with Janel and Val. I nodded my response, Grabbing my bags Derek and I made our way outside. I slipped into the passenger seat of his car.

               Recently, I moved into my house in LA that wasn't too far from Derek and Mark's. It was about four or five minutes away. When Derek pulled to my house I smiled toward him and nodded before stepping out and walking toward my front door. Walking into my house I walked towards me room throwing my bags on the ground. I stripped out of my clothes and stepped into a warm bath then washed my hair and body.

                    Once I stepped out, I quickly dried and flat ironed my hair. When I finished I walked out to my closet and pulled out my Lace Print Fit and Flare dress and slid it onto my body once I clothed in my undergarments. I paired my dress with some black Pointed Ankle-Strap Heels, grabbing my black Faux Leather Satchel I placed my wallet and other stuff into it.

                I walked into my closet and started doing my makeup, mumbling a song to myself. As usual, it was a song by Taylor Swift when I finished my make up I smiled to myself and walked over to where I kept my jewelry. I slid on my arrow pendant necklace then a couple of mid rings and some normal ones. I picked up the beautiful rhinestone bracelet a fan gave me a while back then slide it on.