Wednesday July 29, 2020
Dear Diary,
Hey, it's been a week or two since I talk to you. I just needed time to figure out if my feelings for Jamie is just some type of me over thinking. But it was kinda that and my feelings in one jar of numbness. I know it makes no sense but that's the only way I can explain it. Anyways let's put Jamie situation on hold for a minute because I want to talk about my new crush. She's like a person that you'll see on the bus and connect but forget to ask for their socials and you'll never see them again afterwards. I gave her the nickname 'Kiddo' because she's a little younger than me. When I met her on snap I told Frand (Jamie) 'cause she's still my best friend but I think that was a bad idea cause Frand started to violate Kiddo, talking about how her nose was big. When she said that I felt some type because I realize every time I tell her I'm talking to a baddie or just made a new internet friend she starts to violate them if I send her a picture of what they look. If I don't do that she still violates them slightly by the description I give her. Like what is her problem with the people I talk to? Why does she have to violate them? Whatever back to the situation. So I wrote a song and some of the lyrics are:
"She won't be my girlfriend
Cause she will rejected every little thing that I have said
(Yea)"
I wrote the song to collect my feelings, emotions & thoughts. The song helped me understand more and accept more of what's going on in my head and my heart. I just wish loving people could be a little easier than it really is. I'm still wondering why does love always hurt? Why do we love those we cannot have? How do feelings go and come with no warning? Answer will soon be found maybe WAY in the future.
Sincerely, Camari
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Questionable Decisions: Dear Diary Book 3
RomanceCamari expresses her feelings to her diary day by day. Does she express her feelings towards Jamie? Does Camari find new love? Read to find out what she says.
