Diall: The Untold Story

Chapter 5: A Change

I unlocked my phone frantically when I saw the text was from Demi. My heart was racing a million miles a second.

Demi: I care about you a lot but my feelings are all over the place. I'm not stable when I'm with you. You make me go weak. I think we'd be better off as just friends...please move on.

Me: I can't move on. You know that.

Demi: If you can't move on then we can't be friends. 

Me: Demi don't do this to me. I don't wanna lose you.

She never replied. I didn't think she was serious at first but days went by without a reply. She blocked me on skype and never answered any of my calls. She really didn't want me anymore.

I got extremely depressed. I couldn't sleep or eat or do anything except act like I was fine to the public eye but I could barely do that anymore. I lost the one person who could make me feel like I was on cloud 9. I wanted so badly to be mad at her, to yell at her and let her know what she put me through but I couldn't stay mad at her. It was impossible and I hated the hold she had on me. I felt useless without her in my life.

One day I woke up, looked in my mirror and just cried. What had I become? How could I have let myself get like this all because of a girl? The lads must've thought I had gone mad. I stared at my swollen eyes from crying and ran my finger along the bags under my eyes. I looked like a fucking monster. No wonder Demi didn't want me. My pale skin looked paler than ever. I looked ghostly but I decided to pull myself together and go with Liam to Nandos. Nando's chicken always made me feel a bit better and Liam knew what I was going through. Him and Danielle recently broke up. He seemed so kept together. I don't know how he did it. Demi and me weren't even going out and I was a mess.      Liam's car pulled up in front of my apartment so I hopped in and we were off.

"Hey mate. How are you holding up?"-Liam

"I don't know anymore, but at least I'm getting out of my house for something other than work. That's a start. How bout you?"-Me

"It's been getting better. I think it was for the best though, at least it was a mutual thing. And Andy's been taking me to Funky Buddha a lot so that helps especially since I have two kidney's now."

"Welcome to the world of alcohol, mate. Can I ask you something?"

"Sure. Anything."

"Demi told me to move on...should I? I don't want to but I hate myself like this."

"You just answered it for yourself. Now common Nialler, we've got chicken to devour." I laughed as my stomach rumbled. It'd been a while since I'd eaten a big meal and my appetite was just starting to come back.

That weekend I decided to call a girl from back home. I used to have a huge crush on her and who knows? Maybe she could be the one I move on to. I typed in "Amy Green" and pressed the call button.

"Niall! How's it going buddy?"-Amy

"It's been better, but I was wondering if you wanted to hang out tonight?"

"Hmmm depends. Is this a date?"

"Sure. Let's call it that." I heard her giggle. Then I told her I'd text her the deets later and hung up. That went better than expected, but it was hard to shake the thought of Demi. I wish that was her on the phone. I shook my head and pinched myself. I had to pull it together if I wanted to try and move on.

I was meeting Amy at a pub. I sat down at the bar and ordered two beers while I waited for her to come. 

"HI Niall!" I turned around to see Amy's smiley face and long brown hair.

"Hey. I got you a beer." I said to her as handed a beer to her. We spent the whole night catching up. She told me about uni and how everyone misses me back home and I told her about One Direction and the states. When I got to talking about the VMAs a small frown grew on my face. 

"You okay?" she asked me sincerely. It was nice that she cared but if I brought up Demi I knew I would've been a wreck so I shrugged it off.

"Yeah I'm great." I lied. "Do you want to come with me to Louis's charity football match next weekend? He told me I could bring a date."

"Yeah! I'd love to!"

The next weekend-

Harry picked me up and we were on our way to pick up Amy at her uni dorm. 

"So what's the deal with you and Amy? Does my snowflake have a new princess?" Harry said with a smirk on his face.

"I don't know what we are. I'm not even sure if I like her like that. I'm still figuring it out."

"She's cute mate. If you don't go for her, I might." Harry said as he winked.

"You shouldn't be winking while your driving."

"Shut up" he said as he laughed. We pulled up to Amy's dorm and she was waiting at the front for us. She sat in the back and we were off to Louis's football match.

Right before the match, Liam, Harry, and me went to the locker room to wish Louis luck. "Go get em tiger!" I said as I slapped his ass.

"WOOOOO!" Louis screamed as he ran out. Liam, Harry, and I walked out to the sideline to join Josh(our drummer) and Amy. We cheered the whole game and hugged whenever Louis made a goal. She really was a great girl. After the game I wanted some alone time with her so we took a walk.

"You're really cute." she told me.

"Thanks. So are you." I said as I tried to convince myself to fall for her. I felt like my feelings were trapped behind a wall. They wanted to break through but they were stubborn. Suddenly we stopped walking and Amy kissed me out of no where. I was taken by surprise but maybe it was a sign so I went along with it. I kissed back. She gently bit my lips. I replied by pushing my tongue through her soft lips. I explored her mouth leading her tongue in a chase. I desperately searched for a spark but instead I found myself pretending I was kissing Demi. Shit. I was doing that thing again where I let Demi get to me. She took over my thoughts whenever I was with Amy and it scared me. This whole moving on thing wasn't working. I broke free from the kiss. It wasn't fair to Amy.

 "I can't do this. As much as I wanted there to be a spark, there wasn't. You're really sweet but I love someone esle. Can we  just be friends?" 

"I'd like that. I think we've been friends for too long for it to turn into a relationship. At least we tried." she said with a smile. God. Any guy would be lucky to have her. I never met a girl so understanding. Too bad my heart belongs to Demi. 

Me and Amy began to get really close after that. Fans began to think we were dating, but I was single as a pringle and my heart didn't belong to Amy. So many people thought we were lying but honestly when I get my princess, I'm gonna show her off to the world. 

The next week management called me up with some great news. "Niall, you and the boys will be performing on the USA version of XFactor when you go up to LA for Bring 1D To US." My eyes widened and I stood in my kitchen in shock. Demi was a judge on XFactor. I'd get a chance to patch things up with her. "Niall...you still there?" the other side of the call said. I forgot my phone was still pushed up against my ear.

"Yeah I'm here. Sorry. I got a little sidetracked but that's massive news!"

"I'll get the schedule emailed over to you. LA's going to be a busy busy trip. Talk to you later."

"Bye." 

 I knew we would be performing on the USA version of XFactor, I just hadn't known when and when the date was finally confirmed, I couldn't be happier. It was great timing. I gave Demi some space and the next time she'd see me was when I was pouring my heart on on stage...for her.

----------What will happen on XFactor? Will it all work out for Niall?

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