The secret feeling

She hates me

Matthews pov
As I got in to my car I admit I feel like an asswhole for leaving her all alone but she just sends me mix feelings and she told gilinsky that she loved both of us and we both love her there's not much we can do. I have to admit I was a bit jealous of jack because she loved him and he loved her and they were best friends for a while. I know once she picks one of us well if she does
because I doubt she'll break up with that cunt Adam. My phone rang it was jack. "What?" I spat on him "are you with her?" He asked "what if I am?" I said "cut the shit Matthew alright just answer the question I need to talk to her" he said "than talk to her" I said and hung up I drove to Nash and cams house to cool off for a few. After a while y/n walked through the door. She hesitated to look at me she had been crying for hours. "Weres cam?" She asked not making eye contact "y/n I'm sorry please I--" she cut me off " save it Matthew I didn't come here for an apology if I knew you were here I would have come" she spat it disgust " IM SORRY OKAY IM IN LOVE WITH YOU OKAY AND WHAT I SAID TO YOU WAS A DICK MOVE IM SORRY BUT--" she cut me off

"Matthew! I don't care anymore! I don't want to talk about it right now so save it!" She yelled back at me. I shut up immediately she never blew up on me or anyone like this. It just made me feel worse, I hated how I pressured her, how jack pressured her I hated the fact that anything bothered her. All I could do though was look at the floor as I heard her walk up to Cam's room. Nash automatically sat next to me trying to calm me down.
"Dude what happened?" He asked.
"It's just- Nash I don't know what to do. Between jack - and and- Adam - I just c-cant deal with anything right now." I felt my voice starting to crack as I stuttered and I knew that tears were probably rolling down my probably red cheeks.
"Calm down man. Just let y/n/n relax a little bit." He pat my back and I nodded in agreement.

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