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Requested~Yeonjun(txt)-issues

Requested by : yoonminfan08 

⚠️Warnings ⚠️
This fanfic is about borderline personality disorder, if you don't feel comfortable reading you can skip it!!!! I'm sorry if I make you all uncomfortable....personality I don't have borderline personality disorder so I don't know what it's really about so pls understand me.... I search meaning and what it is online I'm not sure if it right pls correct me and dm me if you are suffering you can dm me I'm gonna listen don't worry I'm not gonna judge you or tell anyone

❓Meaning❓
Borderline personality disorder is an illness marked by an ongoing pattern of varying moods, self-image, and behavior. These symptoms often result in impulsive actions and problems in relationships. People with borderline personality disorder may experience intense episodes of anger, depression, and anxiety that can last from a few hours to days.

Being an idols girlfriend isn't hard, they say.... every fans will trade their life just to be with their beloved idols.....every fan says it a blessing, you should be grateful, be happy you're with our idols living the Y/N life..... for me I don't know if I'm happy or I'm exhausted. Yes I'm happy having Yeonjun as a boyfriend is such amazing things that could happen but yet why am I hurting?? I have borderline personality disorder.....I can't help it, whenever he left to work or on tour I can't be with him, I feel so extremely afraid when I couldn't tolerated the pain, I started not eating anything or self harming. Everything is just bad, because of me I have cause arguments and fights with him. At one time I could finally say that I wanna be happy I wanna achieve my goal.... then the next second I would be no I could do it I'm worthless. I'm tired of being me. Today was another day of hell... yeonjun and me fighting over the phone, why? He couldn't come back and I couldn't take it and started questioning him is he cheating and all then we started being heated and you know what happened. I said those three words let's break up..... I couldn't take the stress, I couldn't leave him but I can't help myself， I f*ck things up every times. All the hates comments, dead threats , voices....they haunt me.
I started cutting again, if only cutting could take my thoughts away....

Yeonjun pov:
Wtf? Break up? Why couldn't she understand me....soobin what did I do wrong? She's ain't the same person I love. She isn't like this before
Soobin: hyung....maybe she is going through something? Try talking to her face to face
Yeonjun: yeah ok, I'm going back first bye
Soobin: bye
End of yeonjun pov

Blood dripping off my wrist down to my knee as I put my hand there, numbness in my eye once turn into terror again....yeonjun opening the front door, staring right at me from my head to my wrist, without time pulling my shirt nor cleaning my cuts....he could see flesh blood on my skin.

Yeonjun pov:
Yeonjun: " y/n. What is this."
Y/n: " n-no I-it nothing i-I-"
Yeonjun: " why the hell are you doing this"
Y/n: "I-I'm sorry"
I walk to her took her hand, check it and take the first aid kit, proceeds to applied it in her cuts... looking at it makes me angry.
Yeonjun: "Now. Why"
Y/n: " I'm.....not well....ok? I'm not fine and I don't think I'm fine but as long I act fine it will be fine..."
Yeonjun : "No" "Who hurt you "
Y/n: " I could take all the threats and hates...and with you being gone I'm alone in my mess up mind"
Yeonjun: "I'm sorry I'm not here when you need me, I promise I will be better and stay with you ok "
Y/n:" I'm sorry, I'm so sorry " as she say crying all her pain out on my shoulder while I pat her and giving some soft kisses on her head. After a while she was sleeping from tiredness. I took this chance and opened my v-live, explaining and how I felt about all of this but for sure she is my one and only and nobody mess with her, she has been hurting for too long, I close the live and I went out on a search for the antis to took some of my anger....I didn't hurt them that bad...they just couldn't handle the pain unlike my baby could. I buried the body somewhere I used to do it, it's been 2 years since I last kill someone, my killing skill became rough....mhhh I need to have practice....of course this is definitely not the last one tho...

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Hiii guys, I haven't been updating cause of school, but feel free to request anything! Though I might take a long time writing but pls do send me some....I'm running out of things to write.... and I'm trying to write two or three ff finished then I post it!!! Also I don't know much about borderline personality disorder so if I did anything wrong pls tell me! I'm sorry if I triggered anything, pls forgive me. That all byebye ❤️