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He loves me?

LOUIS (POV)             words(1,240)

As we wait in the lobby for harry i start to get worried he is usually the first one down here sitting sipping on some coffee. I tell the boys i am going to see what harry is up to as  they sit and chat over breakfast; as i approach his hotel door i notice the 'do not disturb sign' is hanging on the handle. i brush it off and slide my room key in knocking as i slowly open the door.

"Haz? hey you up yet?" I close the door and look around the hotel room. It looks as if no ones even stepped foot into the room. Sure we are only in hotels for 2 or so days, but usually our suitcases are open with clothes all over the place, and the kitchen would be a mess. Not this time tho, i make my way to Harry's room and slightly knock before opening it. I hear deep snoring on the other side of the door and i decide to go ahead and walk in.

As i open the door the light from the hallways pours into his dark room illuminating a figure at his desk. Guessing it was Harry's i walk over to his desk seeing him sleeping on his lap tap, open on the screen is Google with the search bar filled out with the words 'depressing quotes'. Before i question why he was looking at pictures for depression i lightly shake his shoulder.

"Harry? Babe come on we have an interview and we are going to be late." He groans, but opens his eyes, i smile small at the sleepy eyed boy.

"Did some one stay up all night?" I ask concerned, he quickly looks at his laptop and shuts his screen abruptly then stands up.

"NO, and if i did its not of your business, how much time do i have to get ready?"

I frowned and pulled out my phone checking the time sighing. "About 10 minuets"

Harry ran his finger through his hair chewing on his bottom lip before leaving to his bathroom closing the door rather harshly. I always love when he runs his hands through his hair i always found it attractive i don't know why, i mean when Eleanor does it she just makes it look like a tornado came across her head. I sigh and decide to text her before we start the day.

BABY GURL

-Good morning hope you have a good day babe xx

I turn my phone off and i wait for harry to finish, 5 minuets later harry walks out of the bathroom wearing a black v neck with little buttons, some black skinny's, with his signature boots(pic on side) . I smile up at him as we puts his watch on

"You look nice today" He only nods then grabs his phone off his nightstand and walks out of the room i follow behind him the whole way down to the lobby.

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INT- So while you boys are on tour do you find it difficult to get a good sleep in?

Me and and lads shared general nods with some yeahs and of course; while Liam went into a little more depth. I couldn't stop looking at Harry he looked so drained, as if he only got an hour or two of sleep. I am pulled out of my thoughts as the lips i am watching start to move forming words i decide to listen.

"Its like, when your alone in your room and its just like, your thoughts you start to think. Like people always say your mind can be a scaring place but sometimes your mind like its the best place because like you really understand. and you think about that things that scare you because you only think about these things when like you are alone." Harry pauses and looks and me then turns his attention back to the interviewer. " So sometimes yea you may not get a good sleep in but like, i don't know the next morning you might like just understand life, or maybe like your own life a little bit better."

The room when silent everyone was just staring at Harry, is he going through something that he isn't telling us about? Is that why he was looking at those photos my thoughts seem to be taking over my hearing because the next thing i know the boys are standing up giving the interviewer a hug and saying good bye. I shake my head and follow them out to the car.

Niall,Zayn, and Liam all take the car with Paul while i decide to ride with Preston and Harry. (yea i know Paul isn't there anymore but Paul will always be in my heart and always be in my stories!)

The car ride is quite aside from Preston talking on the phone probably to someone from our management;. as i look out the window i feel my phone vibrate i pull it out of my pocket and sigh as i see Eleanor has replied.

 from: BABY GIRL

-thanks, are we going out tonight if not can we go shopping later i need some new clothes xx

NEW CLOTHES? i just bought her like a whole new wardrobe last month! I huff and turn my phone off when i hear a voice talking to me.

"Whats wrong? girlfriend problems...you know you wouldn't have those if you dumped her." Harry practically gritted the last part through his teeth.

"Harry i don't see why you don't like her, did she steal all your bananas or something? seriously you practically hate her. you sound like a jealous ex-girlfriend." 

I know it was rude, but he really is never nice to her. She is my girlfriend and i have to stick up for her!As the car stopped in front of the hotel all i heard was harry whisper.

"How can i like someone that loves the same person as me?" And with those words leaving his lips he got out of the car rushing inside ignoring the fans.

I just sat there trying to understand what happened. i mean sure me and harry have always been close, but as friends right? Nothing more, i mean i have a girlfriend and me and harry are both straight right? Instead of wanting to face the fans in my bad attitude i decided to hang with Preston while he went out to do a few things. Besides i think i need to give Harry some time to cool down. I decide to lay out in the back a take a little car nap,but right before i close my eyes my phone buzzes the screen reads.

MY MONKEY

-i am sorry that's not what you wanted to hear. sorry i ruined your day sorry i ruined everyone's lives, You think i like being a fag? well i don't and i certainly don't like loving you!

A tear falls down my check as i try to send a reply but cant find the words to send, so instead i shut my phone and try to sleep.

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A/N SOOOOOOOO YEA HOPE Y'ALL ARE ENJOYING SO FAR I KNOW I AM, THE NEXT CHAPTER IS GOING TO BE A LITTLE GRUESOME JUST A WARNING. LOVE YOU ALL AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAY, OR NIGHT, OR AFTERNOON WHEREVER YOU ARE!:)