She Who Dressed Like A Knight

Chapter 10: Boyfriend

I couldn't breathe.

Nanunuyo din ang lalamunan ko habang nakatitig kami sa isa't -isa.

And for the first time after two years, ngayon lang ulit kami naging ganito kalapit!

Nang sa wakas ay iniwas niya ang tingin at bumaling kay Adrius ay hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko.

"Always make sure that their vehicle were checked. I did not want any strangers getting in my car again," he said with stern voice. Mariin din ang pagkakasabi niya at parang hindi na siya ang dating Ruston na nakilala ko.

"I'll take note of that, Rus." Sagot naman ni Adrius.

Nag-usap pa sila nang ilan tungkol sa ibang bagay.

Pero parang wala na akong naririnig dahil sa dumaang kirot sa akin. He's the most gentleman and kindest man I ever know. Right now, I am looking at a different person.

He changed...a lot.

Hindi ko din alam kung ikatutuwa ko ba na hindi niya ako nakilala o malulungkot dahil wala na siyang pakialam sa presensya ko?

Napalunok ako sa naisip. Parang unti-unti ding sinasaksak ang puso ko.

Images of us being together suddenly flashed on my mind. Kung gaano kami kasaya noon. How we planned for our future and dreams together.
But now...all of it vanished.

I close my eyes.

I have longed accepted our faith. That we will never be together again. And that loving him is forbidden.

He's so close yet out of my reach.

Ang nagbabadyang mga luha sa aking mga mata ay pinagsikapan kong pigilan.

This is not the right time to reminisce. And also to cry rather, Yeona!
For pete's sake, tama din naman siya. You are just a stranger to him now!

Huminga ako ng malalim kahit masakit ang aking dibdib sa mga naiisip. Tumingin nalang ako sa bintana at pinigilan ang sariling lumingon kay Ruston.

How I wish for the time to passed in an instant pero parang pinarurusahan ako ng tadhana.

Isang oras na atang nakatigil ang kotse namin dahil sa traffic.

At ganoong katagal ko na ding pinipilit na makatulog!

Sabayan pa ang biglaang malakas na hilik ni Neon na ikinagising lalo ng diwa ko.

Napadilat din ako nang marinig ang baritonong boses ni Ruston.

"Turn on the radio, Adrius." Inis na sabi niya.

I smiled silently at his remarked. Siguro'y katulad ko ay hindi din siya makatulog lalo habang naririnig ang malalakas na hilik ni Neon sa harap.

Sinunod iyon ni Adrius hanggang sa nakarinig na ako ng isang kanta.

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings
When it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I close my eyes again. I am here beside him after years and I realize that I wanted to cherish it.

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back
When I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this
Let's just take it slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight