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by phntasia

by phntasia

update 151016 // TRIGGER WARNINGS: this book does contain self harm and it's in a lot of chapters ok mentally prepare yourself with tears i guess and lots of suicidal parts ?? okay bye world xx

I told him to leave, but he just stayed.

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After his easy high school experience from Freshman to Junior, Troye Sivan thought that his Senior year will be perfect. Troye was the most popular kid at the school, actually. People loved him, but he didn't love them back. Thinking his life would be perfect next year, he thought wrong. After his dad and mum getting a job in America, things changed. He had to move and everything. Everything he loved was gone. His boyfriend, friends, popularity, and good grades were useless now that he was moving to America.

When he came to California to start school, Troye put on a smile and entered campus. As he step foot in the school, people immedietly threw things and call him names like "freak" and "gay." All Troye wanted to do was die.

After that day, he cuts and everything. He doesn't want to be some sort of attention whore, so he keeps it all to himself. He never told a soul about his cuts and what he does is wear jumpers to hide his hideous wrists. One day, it all got into his head. People locked him in the janitor's closets, shoved him against lockers, pushed him onto the floors, and take all his notes for his tests that he wants to ace. What Troye does is take pills to die. No one was home at the moment, which was a perfect moment. Before he could commit, the most popular boy, Tyler Oakley, in the school stops him by barging into his house after the sobs he heard outside when going to his friend's house. And after that day, Tyler couldn't stop thinking of him.

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AYE BITCHES GUESS WHO'S BACK WITH A TROYLER FANFIC

MEE SO BE PREPARED

this will be in first person, just saying. hAVe Fun wAiting 10 yEaRs fOR mE tO uPdatE a cHapter!

idk if i should make this into a series. maybe. i might make the chapters have about 1000-3000 words in them and make the stories have at least 20-30 chapters.

YEAH IM MAKING THIS INTO A SERIES. BE FUCKING PREPARED

okay so there's going to be just a sequel since i can't think of the third book's name.

I THOUGHT OF IT OKAY THE NAMES:

first book: hold me

second book: trust me

third book: let go

im not sure if trust me is good and if it isn't comment what the second book should be called. maybe accept me? idk. WELL GOODBYE SEE YOU SOON

UPDATE ( 16.07.15 ):

to new readers: hi! i'm wondering why you chose to read this fanfic bc when i try to read it i just cringe bc i think it's shit. but whatever. hello! i want to say thank you for reading and i hope you like it! before you get into the story, i want to say that there are ( i think ) triggering parts in this story. i do not put warnings, though, bc i'm too lazy to put in warnings. also, there is an offensive chapter ( to some people if you're very very religious ) in this book which is chapter 10 ( x ) and if you do not feel comfortable reading it, you don't have to. i don't put where it starts, though. just saying, i'd at least read part of the beginning and the ending bc it shows how badass tyler is and then it's v v v v v v v v v cute ( in my opinion ) so sorry to anyone who was offended. well, enjoy this book and hope to see you soon!

UPDATE ( 23.07.15 ) ( #Wattys2015 ):

HELLO! i just saw that the wattys are here now !! so hi, if you're a new reader or old reader, i hope you will vote for this book for the wattys! i chose to be in the categories lgbt and fanfiction feels ( idk if you can enter in two i just did but if you can't please let me know this is my first year of entering in the wattys ). i hope you will vote for this story because i would really like to win an award or something idk !! btw i'm editing the story a bit so it won't be like trash bc this is my first fanfic i have ever written and it's basically my baby bc i love it and it has the most reads and votes than my other fanfics !! well hope you have a frantastic ( i'm not sorry ) day and i hope you can vot—

WAIT

do you know how to vote? if you don't know how to vote, please read the following below:

join wattpad on twitter and share a link to this story with the hashtag "#MyWattysChoice" through august 24 to august 31 of the year 2015.

it's simple ok

i would really like to win at least one award ( which is least likely to but i have my dreams ! ) also i might be entering in the second book to this ( remember me ) and some of my better fanfics i have ( probably the third book also idk ) such as mentally in love. so if you would like to you could also vote for those too but i would like for you to mainly vote for hold me !! ok thank you you can go back to reading bye !!

UPDATE 24.08.15:

SO THE VOTING STARTED TODAY AND I WANT YOU GUYS TO RT ANY VOTE YOU SEE WITH THIS:

"#MyWattysChoice ( link to this story )"

GO FOLLOW MY TWITTER @PHNTASIA AND RT ALL THE TWEETS ABOUT THIS THX M8S ILYASFM AND HAVE A GREAT DAY