The Player and Me.

The Player and Me- Chapter 1

1 Year later

Lauren's POV

I lean up against the cold window and gaze at the abundance of tall green trees as we drive by. I glance down and see my tiny hands laying hopelessly on my lap. I look at my left wrist and lightly trace the deep scar that stared back at me. I wince as the memories of that day replayed in my mind..

It was the day I attempted to commit suicide.

It was about 2 months after witnessing Michael cheat on me. I couldn't fight the demons inside my head anymore, I just couldn't. It was then that I let the knife touch my skin. I sat there in my bathroom; alone; slowly bleeding to death. It was all a blur. I could hear faint noises and I felt someone's presence and then an ear-aching scream; then everything went black.

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I was in the hospital for about 1 week, then it was support groups and therapists after therapists for the next 5 months. I was getting better. I had my family there to support me every step of the way. I didn't feel so alone anymore. And that was when I realized, I was glad to be alive.

I snapped back to reality and sat back and let out a big sigh. My parents decided it was only best to have a whole new fresh start.  They were high-school sweethearts and became doctors together. They always put me first since I was the only child; and I loved them so much but it pained me to think I had caused them so much hurt when they thought they might've lost me that night in the emergency room.

We were on our way to settle into our new house in a town in New Jersey. It was a beautiful day in June. The sun was shining bright and you could see kids riding on their bicycles and running around in their front yard laughing like there was no tomorrow. We made a turn and all you could see were gigantic houses that were the size of a mansion; no, they probably are mansions. "We're here" my parents enthusiastically chirped as our car slowly stopped infront of a big white house. It was the same size as my old one and it looked amazing. I quickly ran out the car and went inside the house. I raced up the spiral stairs and walked into the bedroom with the sign that marked 'Lauren'. Everything was prepared for us before we moved in to prevent us the hassel. I was in awe of what was set infront of me.

Effortless sparkling lights hung beautifully on my light teal painted walls as the cloud white silk curtains draped around my canopy bed. I walked around reading the fancy black colored quotes that were plastered on my wall saying 'Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss you'll land among the stars' 'Everyday is a second chance.' and my favorite of all 'Look deeper through the telescope and do not be afraid when the stars collide towards the darkness,because sometimes the most beautiful things begin in chaos.'

I geniunely smiled. "To new beginnings" I said.

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