Confessions Of Aaliyah

5. Clouds

" We're going too get high ?" My voice sqeaked
" Haha , there ain't shit else to do and I haven't smoked since I've moved . " he said nonchalant

I looked around his room trying too lower my heart rate . I just needed to calm down . I know it's pretty petty too get so worked up over smoking ( which 95% of the kids at my school did on a daily basis ) but I have never done it before . The last thing I want to do is look like a fool and have a coughing fit in front of Alex like I've seen on the movies for first time weed smokers.

"Sooo..." he said , " So what ? " I snapped my head towards him unaware I was lost in a daze . He chucked but I could tell he was a little irritated " You want too , I mean you don't have too I'm not into that peer pressure stuff ." he smirked.
I giggled nervously , " Oh yeah I don't mind , we can . We don't - , or I mean I at least don't have nothing better to do ." my voiced cracked at the end.

" Okay then " he smirked . He got up and went across his room too his white dresser and pulled a small plastic bag and a pack of blunts out of the top drawer . He came back towards the bed and lifted the end of his mattress up , stuck his hand under and grabbed a flat board usually used for cooking or chopping something up and a lighter .
" Look , I have a feeling it's your first time smoking " he said while sitting at the end of his bed starting too unravel the plastic bag that contained the weed .
I blushed a deep red and it only confirmed his assumption of this being my first time cause he saw it from the corner of his eye .
" Yeah but it's kind of embarrassing ,you know ." I hung my head . " I mean all the people I grown up with have been had this experience and I'm just now experiencing it " I said frustrated . He laughed while licking the blunt . He sparked the lighter towards the blunt and was now doing a back and forth motion.
" Yeah I understand , but your not like everybody else , And everybody has had a first time doing something , stop beating yourself up and enjoy the moment . " He winked.
Little did he know I was enjoying every second being with him. This is the most fun I've had since ... ever .
He sparked the lighter and lit the blunt and took a long inhale . I watch with lust and amazement , how could someone look so good doing something so wrong.
He exhale , hit it a couple times and passed it too me . My fingers shook with excitement
I copied exactly what he did and inhaled , held it for about 3 seconds and exhaled .
I hit it a couple more times shocked I didn't cough . I must have strong lungs .

"Wellll , look at you baby girl !" He smiled
I blushed and passed it back too him. " It wasn't as bad as I thought ! " I exclaimed .

He laughed at me excitement and we passed the blunt back and forth until there wasn't anything for our fingers too hold on too .
He put out the blunt and layed back.
I did the same , I was starting too feel a little more comfortable around him or maybe it was the weed , Either way I didn't care .

"Aaliyah .." He said with a relaxed almost goofy tone . "Yeah .. " I giggled . "Do you feel it ? " He turned his head towards me . "F-feel what ?" I said confused .
" The HIGH , what else . He said in a duhh tone . " Look at the ceiling and tell me what you see " he continued .
I saw clouds , pink blue purple . I started too laugh and reach my hand out too try to capture on of these magic wonders .
Alex was still staring at me and started too laugh . " I'll take that as a yes , you are high . " He said in the same goofy tone .
His voice was like a torch , and my body was like a cold empty black cave . I needed warmth and he seemed like exactly what the doctor ordered .
I turned too him ever so bold and reach out and touched his face . His eyes widened and then relaxed but the winkles on his eyebrows told me he was thinking deeply . Probably wondering why I was touching him .

I didn't care I am high and I'm going to take advantage of it .

I was stroking his cheek , the started too trace his strong cheekbones . Never breaking eye contact , I proceed my way up too his eyes and eyelashes. He seemed to relax and enjoyed me touching him . Then he did something I would have expected anybody too do in a million years . He took my hand off his lovely face and held it ...Tight .

My heart seemed too race at impossible speeds.
"A-Alex . " My voice cracked. " Shhh . " he mumble and pulled me into him so that my face was on his chest and his arm wrapped around me and the other still holding mine .
I didn't dare too speak another word , Because if I did I'm afraid this bliss would disappear like a thief in the night .

In what seemed like hours later , I laid there with him I knew it was time for me too go.
He was asleep so I carefully undid myself from his tight grip on my waste and carefully untangled my fingers . When I rose I look down at him on his bed and took the corner of his bed sheet and placed it on him . I smiled and made my way out of his house .
I never had been so happy in my life as blissfully walked my way home and went into the house .
I took off all my clothes and took a steaming hot shower . Let me tell you , you haven't never truly enjoyed a shower , unless you took one high as a kite .

I never wanted too leave it was also as good a being in Alex's arms.

Finally I got out the shower and when I got out my mother was outside the bathroom. She mean mugged me and brushed past me with an evil eye . If I wasn't high I would have gave a damn but since I'm am , I don't .

I tied my wet hair and threw on a stained sweatshirt and crawled into bed . I kept replaying how Alex pulled me into his embrace and then I drifted off too sleep .